September 24 -- Wish we could get the time back.
Dear Diary,
Two years ago, I moved to Stormwind.
I didn't know anyone, nobody from a hole in the wall. I spent most of the first couple of months looking for odd jobs, until in November, I found myself accidentally joined to a cult. Their first assignment for me was to assassinate someone named Afterburn. Afterburn had a friend. That friend's name was Stehl.
I'm fairly certain that Stehl thought I had feelings for him at some point, but that's neither here nor there. Not many people have helped me as much as he has, in many different ways. He's one of maybe three people who know what really happened when Mystadon held me captive outside of Southshore. He's ostensibly the reason I know Oliver. He saved our lives in the riots, he was my commanding officer, he was my confessor, he is my friend.
And he is dying.
According to Aradelle (who is a sweet girl, if a bit... well. Featherbrained? That's a good word for it), who heard it from Liotuse (who confirmed with me), the Light-fire that Stehl acts as a conduit for is getting to be too much for his mortal body to handle. Sooner or later--and probably sooner--he'll give out. Cease to handle it. None of them are saying how, but knowing Stehl, I can't imagine that he'd go quietly. If he has to die, Stehl will die in battle, protecting the people he loves (he claims to hate, but you can't protect people the way he does without loving them).
And that is why, I am nearly certain that is why, he is searching for the Apophan.
He asked Oliver about it, earlier this week. Oliver refused to tell him anything, mostly because (I think) he wants to put that whole mess behind us. So do I, though I sent Stehl a note last night, telling him that we need to talk. I'll tell him what he wants to know, but I also need to tell him that if he's choosing suicide by that monster as his method of death, I shan't avenge him. I'm not a brave paladin or knight. I can't face that fear again. I can't go back. I can't. I can't. I can't.
I am, however, afraid that if Stehl chooses that route, he'll be going there to die alone. I don't want that. I don't think Liotuse will allow that. Chadley won't allow that. None of his friends will allow that. Hell, if he wasn't looking for the Apophan, I wouldn't allow that. I just can't face that thing again. Not again.
But I can help Stehl in other ways, and I will. I just
I wish he'd chosen some other way. I wish we had more time. It's the most surreal of things, because this is STEHL. I've seen him nearly decapitated and bouncing back. I've seen him go through hell and bouncing back. I've seen horrible things happen to him, and he bounced back. He can't die, but he is. And
I don't know.
-S.
Two years ago, I moved to Stormwind.
I didn't know anyone, nobody from a hole in the wall. I spent most of the first couple of months looking for odd jobs, until in November, I found myself accidentally joined to a cult. Their first assignment for me was to assassinate someone named Afterburn. Afterburn had a friend. That friend's name was Stehl.
I'm fairly certain that Stehl thought I had feelings for him at some point, but that's neither here nor there. Not many people have helped me as much as he has, in many different ways. He's one of maybe three people who know what really happened when Mystadon held me captive outside of Southshore. He's ostensibly the reason I know Oliver. He saved our lives in the riots, he was my commanding officer, he was my confessor, he is my friend.
And he is dying.
According to Aradelle (who is a sweet girl, if a bit... well. Featherbrained? That's a good word for it), who heard it from Liotuse (who confirmed with me), the Light-fire that Stehl acts as a conduit for is getting to be too much for his mortal body to handle. Sooner or later--and probably sooner--he'll give out. Cease to handle it. None of them are saying how, but knowing Stehl, I can't imagine that he'd go quietly. If he has to die, Stehl will die in battle, protecting the people he loves (he claims to hate, but you can't protect people the way he does without loving them).
And that is why, I am nearly certain that is why, he is searching for the Apophan.
He asked Oliver about it, earlier this week. Oliver refused to tell him anything, mostly because (I think) he wants to put that whole mess behind us. So do I, though I sent Stehl a note last night, telling him that we need to talk. I'll tell him what he wants to know, but I also need to tell him that if he's choosing suicide by that monster as his method of death, I shan't avenge him. I'm not a brave paladin or knight. I can't face that fear again. I can't go back. I can't. I can't. I can't.
I am, however, afraid that if Stehl chooses that route, he'll be going there to die alone. I don't want that. I don't think Liotuse will allow that. Chadley won't allow that. None of his friends will allow that. Hell, if he wasn't looking for the Apophan, I wouldn't allow that. I just can't face that thing again. Not again.
But I can help Stehl in other ways, and I will. I just
I wish he'd chosen some other way. I wish we had more time. It's the most surreal of things, because this is STEHL. I've seen him nearly decapitated and bouncing back. I've seen him go through hell and bouncing back. I've seen horrible things happen to him, and he bounced back. He can't die, but he is. And
I don't know.
-S.