Fic - Heartbeat
Title: Heartbeat
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Ratings: PG
Spoilers: General Series 1 and 2
Summary: I listen to your heartbeat and wish you were mine.
Disclaimers: I own nothing!
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I listen to your heartbeat and wish you were mine.
I can't keep you, no matter what I do. One day you will leave to him, to the one you believe in. I cannot keep you.
We lie together in our bed. I don't know when it became ours, not just a place to sleep, to be alone. Instead it is now a place to have and to hold and to love. It is ours.
But you are not mine. I've been given miracles I did not wish for but the simplest of all things, having an ordinary life with you, I am to be denied.
You are beautiful when you sleep. You are peaceful, young and you have no worries. I wish I could always keep the frown from your face.
I kiss your soft cheek and feel your warmth. My hand takes its place on your chest, feeling your heart work beneath your flesh. It is a lullaby to me, the steady thudding of your life. It comforts me like nothing else.
I would be alone but for you. I don't think you even realise it. You saved me, showed me my loneliness and healed me. It sounds trite and sentimental but it is true. I don't know how you did it, that I was even so damaged but you showed me. You made me better.
You turn into my embrace, half awake. I nuzzle into your warmth, stroke your cheek, your hair, your bare chest. I don't want you to wake, not yet. You get so much peace in your sleep. I want sleep too, that peace with you in my arms. I want to hold onto it for as long as it lasts. I want to hold onto you, my boy, until your God takes you away from me.
I press my cheek to your chest and feel your breathing against my skin. You are mine, at least until your final rest.