A BRAND NEW LIFE (Chapter 9)

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[beachtree]

Wow- so many overwhelming emotions, issues, questions and challenges for one little boy. His life is such a littered minefield that even what others perceive as a happy occasion is filled with hurt, anguish and painful realizations for Ryan when he recognizes how others view him and his circumstances. The more he hears, the more uncertain and torn he becomes as he tries to equate what Dawn told him previously with what he is being told presently. He can't bring himself to let go of the only family he's ever known and he can't abandon them even as Dawn does the very same so cruelly to him. But he can't begin to move forward, trust and let himself relax and be loved while he desperately tries to process so many conflicting messages and feelings. Everyone assumes, but no one clarifies and Ryan pays

[brassebouillon]

Thanks for your incredibly interesting comment! Ryan's adaptation to his new life is pretty difficult because he's convinced that Dawn is goint to take him back to his old life. We can find that it's a crappy one, but this life is the one he's really used to. With Dawn ditching him he's going to be abble to build something to last with his new family.
His reaction is also interesting because it makes the Cohen realize that thier foster son is way more damage than they first thought. They knew he had some issues, but they thought that the stability of their family and their love could fix Ryan's problems. And now, they realize that he needs some help they can give him.
But I don't want to spoil the next chapters!
Thanks again!

[beachtree]

Well, you've touched on a theme and point that I always thought was downplayed if not just ignored in canon. As we rewatch from the beginning, it's more apparent. Everyone assumed Ryan's life was fine once he had a knew legal address and one in such an upscale neighborhood and community. What no one considered was that Ryan had lost everything: his family, friends, life as he knew it- everything that comprised his world. That's unnerving and shattering to be thrown into the unknown and dependent on strangers. No matter how bad his life was, it was his and it was what he knew. In canon he might not have believed Dawn would be back and he didn't even want to find her, but rejection is something no one ever gets over- especially abandonment of that sort. On some level, he needed to know that he was still loved and wanted, not simply cast aside as something useless and worthless

[dogsbody01]

You summed it all up,quite nicely.

[fifimom]

Great update. This chapter is so heart wrenching. Poor Ryan. Dawn is a cruel evil person but now that Ryan has really crashed and the Cohens see just how torn up he is they can begin to truly help him. He did a really great job on this very important chapter. Thank you and be proud of yourself.

[brassebouillon]

Thanks for your nice comment!
Dawn is cruel partly because she's drunk and high, as she was in The Pilot when she threw her own fifteen year old son out.
Now she had ditched Little Ryan! he's going to be abble to built something lasting with his new family!

[dogsbody01]

Damn Dawn to Hell and back, for creating so much pain in Ryan's life and just walking away.The part with Frank's shirt?Just heartwrenching.Please keep up the good work.

[brassebouillon]

Thanks for commenting!
Dawn is wasted as in The Pilot when she threw her son out. What's "positive" is that Ryan is going to build his life knowing that his mother won't take him back.
I've got a lot of work at my job (the French presidential elections are coming soon and I work as a high civil servant) but I'll try to update soon!

[dogsbody01]

Your welcome and good luck with the election.

[helen_c]

Oh, pauvre Ryan! Et félicitations à Dawn pour avoir gagné, encore une fois, l'oscar de la pire mère de tous les temps... C'est une chose d'aller dire à Ryan qu'elle s'en va et qu'elle ne reviendra pas, c'est en est une autre de lâcher à un gamin de son âge ce qu'elle lui a dit. Grrrrr.

Et pauvres Cohens, aussi--aider Ryan à 15 ans, quand il pouvait plus ou moins dire ce qui n'allait pas (même si la plupart du temps, il ne le faisait pas), c'était déjà difficile. Mais ici, c'est encore pire...

:(

J'adore cette fic!!

[brassebouillon]

Merci! Dans le pilote, j'avais halluciné lorsque j'avais vu la mère complètement torchée, jeter son gamin de 15 ans dehors (à l'époque, je pensais qu'il en avait 16 et manifestement les scénaristes aussi, mais qd même

[helen_c]

(à l'époque, je pensais qu'il en avait 16 et manifestement les scénaristes aussi, mais qd même).
Oui... Ce qui me tue, c'est qu'ils doivent forcément avoir des gens qui prennent note de ce genre de "détails", non? J'ai passé toute la première saison persuadée que Ryan avait 16 ans, pour apprendre pendant la saison 2 que non, il n'était pas en terminale. Zarbi...

(ce qui, à mon avis, a manqué dans la série,Et je ne suis pas loin de penser que ce n'est pas plus mal, vu la catastrophe que ça a donné les rares fois où les scénaristes nous ont montré des psys. Taylor et la foldingue, Summer en train de sanglotter au début de la saison 4 (je ne dis pas que ça ne m'a pas fait rire, dans un cas comme dans l'autre, mais c'était pas vraissemblable pour deux balles). Et bien entendu, mon préféré, c'était Marissa qui avait l'occasion de rencontrer un garçon très perturbé dans la salle d'attente d'un psy. Pour avoir eu affaire à des psys de mon côté, je peux te dire qu'ils font tout pour que leurs patients évitent de se croiser (rendez-vous

[brassebouillon]

Dans chaque série ou film, il y a des erreurs, mais celle-ci était énorme! Surtout quand on voit un Ryan de 15 ans qui prend pour Thanksgiving le volant de la voiture de son père adoptif/tuteur, avocat de son état alors qu'il n'a pas l'âge de conduire

[yessi_5]

I'm late to this party, due to a two week internet hiatus (damn trojan almost killed my laptop...), but better lat than sorry:

I loved this so much. One of my favourite chapters so far. You continue to break my heart each and every time I read your version of little Ryan.

I really didn't expect Dawn to show up and as much as she hurt Ryan, it might have been a good thing for him in the end. She might have brought it home to him that he won't be back with his old family. Ever. And that the Cohens are there for him. Always. Not leaving him alone, not in that hospital, not ever again. After hitting rock bottom here, the Cohens must have realised just how much he needs their help. He can't pretend being fine anymore - and apparently he has realised that he doesn't need to pretend anymore. I was so glad that he asked for Kirsten, stopped bottling up his emotions and confided his fears in her.

To put a long comment short: I loved this very much!

[yessi_5]

P.S: I friended you, I hope you don't mind?

[brassebouillon]

Thanks for commenting! You totally got my point of view about Ryan and the Dawn's scene : now she has "officially" abandonned him, he can build a new life in a new family. It's not a temporary think, it's going to last. He can mourn his old family and can be sad he's not going to see them anymore. The Cohen realize that they can't help him all by themselves and are going to need help.
It's nice to have friended me, and I "friended" you back.