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Hey Live journal peeps.. Well I’ll be frank; my life is a living hell right now. Already im grounded from internet, TV, parties ((and all other activities outside of church and school)), and talking on the phone to Chad. Well last night I called Chad, even though im not supposed to, and I got caught. My dad is in Texas right now, so he called me on the phone and told me that he was taking my make-up away ((o ya that reminds me im also grounded from my hair straightener).. so that made me really mad and so I hung up on him.. for that he called back and told me I was now grounded from going to church on Wednesday nights. Yay now all I do is go to school and come home, on weekends, I stay home all day and do homework or doodle on pieces of paper. So, this made me super mad, so I went into my closet into my room and would not talk to my dad or my mom on the phone the whole night. All I did al last night was sit in my closet and cry, I even got to th point where my eyes were so dry that they burned and I couldn’t close my eyes. Meanwhile my mom is talking to my dad on the phone who is threatening to come home from Texas and whip me with his belt. My mom did hit me a couple of times, from her aggravation. So I stay up all night and then I go to school, on the way to school my mom wouldn’t even look at me, but she was not hesitant to send me to school so she could get rid of me. I got to school and cryed, and cryed and cryed, ((I got to school at 7:00)) then I did my make-up with the little make-up I was able to sneek away from my parents.. well my day was horrible enough at school, but for the first time in my life and not the last I wanted to stay at school and not go home. Well I obviously got my wish because my mom picked me up at 4:00 2 hours late. She said it was because she didn’t feel like picking me up. Well at 3:00 I had a hair appointment, she cancelled that. I just got home, and guess what im doing? Crying.. I hate my life and wish my parents had never adopted me. They didn’t bring me into this world, and if they ahdn’t adopted me then some nice family would have adopted me. I owe nothing to them, my life would be just as good if someone else adopted me, perhaps better. Im thinking better. I want to run away, but I know that would never work.. besides im not the adventurous type. All day all I thought about was how so much I would like to fall asleep in chad’s arms. I know that seems really corny, but he’s the only person on the earth that I trust and love right now, and I haven’t had any sleep so it would be nice to be where I could have peace in my life. Now I can’t even see chad on Wednesdays, I can’t talk to him on the phone, I cant see him outside of church, and on Sunday I have to sit with my parents. I hate my parents so much. Well I’l go now because I don’t want to bore you with my very depressing life. I know other people have it much worse than me, but my life was going good, and then I hit rock bottom. Can it get any worse?? Yes, when my dad gets back into town, on Thursday.
~liz~