It's odd. Until this week I didn't really realize how much of my life Heather was. Still is if you count how much I think about her. My life went from incredibly full last week to seemingly empty this week. I'm sure the fact that I don't have midterms or 5 days of training this week is a part of it, but still. I'm just as guilty as her for not ( Read more... )

Starving but unwilling to eat. Got home and all I wanted to do was sleep until I felt better. I always feel better after sleeping. But sleep didn't last and now it wont come again. Games, guitar, V for Vendetta, and comics haven't helped. I deserve every ounce of sadness, but it still hurts. Writing in here doesn't help either it seems...

Every 5 minutes I have to keep myself from calling her, telling her I've made a huge mistake, and asking her to come watch a movie and cuddle with me. I've hurt one of the worlds sweetest girls...again. At this rate I'm doing to die alone. Why did all the reasons to break up seem so clear yesterday and so non-existant today? She's amazingly nice ( Read more... )

I left my window open a couple nights ago. When I woke up, my desk that sits next to it had ash all over it. I can't help but wonder who's home it was. A person's? A birds? Some poor farm animal? It looks like things are in the upswing now. I know that fires need to happen for the ecosystem in this area, and I know we as humans pride ourselves ( Read more... )

3 miles, no pain. Getting better.

Man did this birthday rock! Starting Thursday, I went into work and my boss pulled me aside before my shift to talk. He and another manager sat me down, asked if everything was alright, got me good and nervous, then promoted me. I start server training on Tuesday. I'm so excited about finally making real money. Plus, I need something to take ( Read more... )

I went running yesterday. It was excruciatingly wonderful. 2 miles in 20 minutes, on a treadmill of course. It hurts today, but I'll try again on tuesday.

Man did it feel good...

In college, sometimes you have to put up with some difficult teachers...and sometimes you need to know when to tell them to fuck off ( Read more... )

"Live your life. Don't let your pain live it for you ( Read more... )

Man if I don't write things down sooner, I'll forget them ( Read more... )