here's the first half
anonymous
August 1 2004, 13:12:20 UTC
well i'm doing what you said and writing. what is sad is that the person that helps me to feel happy, is also the person that makes me feel sad. its sad to know that someone you care about so much, and would give the world to in a heartbeat, is not as happy as she could be, or as she should be. knowing that you could give so much more to that person then they are recieving is a very terrible and helpless feeling. to care for someone so bad that it hurts, and knowing that they will never feel the same for you is one of the worst feelings in the world. but this isn't the first time. so you'd think i'd be more prepared. NOPE. whats sad is that i know none of this will phaze you, and i don't want it to. i don't want to bother you. i just want you to be happy, and if that means for me to go out of my way, and against my own heart, and help you with this, then so be it. i guess it'll take one heart sacrificed to let another heart grow. but you can take this anyway you want. i'm not trying to make you feel bad or any of that other
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well its about 12:30, we never got a chance to talk on the phone today. i called after about 20 minutes, but your dad was on the other line. i don't know if he told you. but yea i wasn't sure if i was suppose to call again or not. it was unclear after you said to call after 20 minutes and your phone was busy. and i didn't see online either. but yea i'm wondering if i should call now. of course i'd like to, but i don't want to get you in trouble or anything. its just that we never had our grand ol time today! i mean sure we had some fun online, but it just wasn't the same, ha, el oh el***. but yea i hope you had a good day. i don't know if i told you, but my middle school is having a class reunion tomorrow. i'm sure it seems dumb, but i hope it will be kinda cool, i actually kinda have something to look forward to now. plus it'll be neat seeing everyone again, well mostly everyone. but yea i'll tell you more about that tomorrow. it isn't till like 5 in the evening. but some people i guess want to go do something after.
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hey well i just wanted to say hi, i'm sure you're out and about, but i just wanted to see what was up. i tried calling around 2, but no one picked up, i left a message though. but yea i'm looking forward to when you come down, i miss you a lot. but ok, i'll probably try calling later tonight, plus its the weekend and i have free nights and weekends, so i'll definitely take advantage of that. i would have called earlier, but i was out, and my phone didn't have any service where we were at. i had like 1 bar. but yea i'll call later. hopefully you'll be home. well talk to you then princess... -prince
hope you had a good day. sorry i didn't call, i pulled a mr. p. i guess, haha. i've been out and about the past few days. but hopefully i'll get to talk to you tomorrow. i'll call after church. so until then sleep now....... goodnight -pat
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sleep now.......
goodnight
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