Sugar. Yuck yuck yuck yuck yuck.

5 months later ( Read more... )

What's left of my ed is stuck in my mind right now. It's a pain in the ass, because I'm eating healthy, probably NOT getting enough excercise for once... and I still get all the guilt, all the remorse, all the stupid grief over a stupid cause.

I have a lot more to say, later.

Oh god food.

First and foremost, please, please disregard anything off about this post. I'm all drugged up on ati-something for a pre-dentist trial run. I wouldn't let them give me shots, so they want me groggy. Christ I hate needles. And I feel really weird. Top heavy.... heavy heavy, sluggish kind of. And I'm all off balance. Fun times. It's ( Read more... )

Okay. It’s been far too long. Actually, the only reason I’m typing is because I have some (probably inaccurate) notion that putting this out in front of me will help me regulate food shit. Over winter break, I got back down to 95 lbs. It felt terrific! Food wasn’t dictating where I would go, I wasn’t hovering around the kitchen 24/7. I basically ( Read more... )

My bmi is 18.5 right now. That's actually surprising and pathetic all at once.

And it's been forever, because I've been to lazy to sign out and sign in again on this account.

But I tend to hibernate online during the summer. Too much goes on. Things have been hectic with unpacking from moving and adjusting to our 'housemate' and etc. I honestly haven't been trying to keep any sort of system going on with food. Not even by meals or snacks. I eat when I feel like it, which seems to mean I'm snacking throughout the day. ( Read more... )

Okay, me:

- Someone (strangely enough the same person who claimed I was a glutton, also strangely enough my grandmother) told me today how nice it's been to have gotten to actually know me in the past year. She apparently was "worried about me last year" because I "was into so much black and so withdrawn from my surroundings". Last year was NOT a ( Read more... )

I've gotten into a habit of preparing these really yummy looking almost dessert dishes for myself, always healthy, and usually at breakfast or lunch. Still trying to figure out if I'm trying to compensate and make them look better so I won't feel so bad about actually eating. This morning it was plain non-fat yogurt with little kiwi slices in a ( Read more... )

No SHIT I look healthier. One tends to when they're not eating their body away. I don't need to you to point it out thanks. It's also called sun. Sun brings out some color in skin. Yes, can you believe it?! And eyes DO tend to sparkle, seeing as though they're covered in liquid.

JESUS! Really, I didn't need that. She was about a milimetre away from ( Read more... )