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[brecheese]

havent updated in a bazilion years. but i am at a house and in the drunken state of mind to do so. life has been lonley but thats when what you get when you weed people out to a select few. now i spend my time at work and in books and film. loneliness has been an eye opener and i can concentrate on myself and not on my so called significant other

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[piperm]

I am sad that you are feeling sad and alone. I feel like I want to reach out but that my arms are unwanted and I want to respect that. I want to respect that you need space and can only have certain people in your life right now but I miss you to a painful point. I don't think I've ever missed anyone in my life as much as I miss you right now. I think of you often, but don't know what to say. My fear of your rejection keeps me from calling anymore. Because I don't want to feel like I'm not letting you go when you want to be let go. I don't know. I just love you very much and want you to know that. I'm sorry if my actions may have confused that in your mind. Both of us had a lot of growing up and self-realization to do and I think we're starting to do it. I think both of us were people-pleasers who were trying to please two very different people. But, I don't think that you and I are all that different. I would love to have you back in my life for good. I would love if we could move forward with a more mature and healthy friendship.