FILL: Jensen & Jared - SPN RPS J2 death!ficvickevireJune 27 2011, 02:02:41 UTC
A/N: Surprise!Fill :) I rarely write, so decided it was best to not give you a heads up.
The top shelf in their closet was too high up; Jensen could barely reach the box. A second later everything in it clattered to the floor. Jensen heard it, but he didn’t look. He felt completely sapped of energy, so instead he just left, closed the door and decided to do the dishes by hand. The familiar task relaxed him, and soon his breath hitched. He washed his dirty dishes and thought, like he always did, that he didn’t actually know what it was he was feeling. He felt numb, not sad, while tears dropped from his nose and chin and he gasped for air through his clogged throat.
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Jensen sat cross legged in the closet sorting through the clatter. Two USB-drives, to check out later. A defiled magazine photo of him and Jared, impossible to decide what to do with. The charger they’d been - the lost charger. A chew toy worse for wear, to throw away. A jewelry box -
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Jared Padalecki, it said on the grave. Jensen clenched his hand around
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Re: FILL: Jensen & Jared - SPN RPS J2 death!ficex_sasukichJune 27 2011, 03:00:27 UTC
TT___TT oh jensen... *sobs*
love this fill. the unspoken proposal is perfect... i don't think jensen's a very verbose guy when it comes to his emotions, and grief would certainly make that even harder on him... i can see him working through his loss as time passed here. the ending where he finally decided to tell other ppl about ring... it's almost bittersweet (don't worry, it's still very very sad and angsty) in that there's an element of acceptance and finding his feet and moving on that just breaks me.
thank you for writing this, it's exactly the kinda angst i was looking for!
Re: FILL: Jensen & Jared - SPN RPS J2 death!ficvickevireJune 27 2011, 08:24:45 UTC
Hey, no, I wish I could write a billion comments!fic. But to me, trying to do that would be like - how's the saying? - squeezing tears from a stone? Writing is so, so frustrating to me.
The top shelf in their closet was too high up; Jensen could barely reach the box. A second later everything in it clattered to the floor. Jensen heard it, but he didn’t look. He felt completely sapped of energy, so instead he just left, closed the door and decided to do the dishes by hand. The familiar task relaxed him, and soon his breath hitched. He washed his dirty dishes and thought, like he always did, that he didn’t actually know what it was he was feeling. He felt numb, not sad, while tears dropped from his nose and chin and he gasped for air through his clogged throat.
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Jensen sat cross legged in the closet sorting through the clatter. Two USB-drives, to check out later. A defiled magazine photo of him and Jared, impossible to decide what to do with. The charger they’d been - the lost charger. A chew toy worse for wear, to throw away. A jewelry box -
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Jared Padalecki, it said on the grave. Jensen clenched his hand around ( ... )
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love this fill. the unspoken proposal is perfect... i don't think jensen's a very verbose guy when it comes to his emotions, and grief would certainly make that even harder on him... i can see him working through his loss as time passed here. the ending where he finally decided to tell other ppl about ring... it's almost bittersweet (don't worry, it's still very very sad and angsty) in that there's an element of acceptance and finding his feet and moving on that just breaks me.
thank you for writing this, it's exactly the kinda angst i was looking for!
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It will end up being a bajillion comments I'm sure
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It's almost bittersweet in that there's an element of acceptance and finding his feet and moving on that just breaks me.
I'm so glad this game across. :)
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I especially like the way he can't even complete a full thought.
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I wanted to show how overwhelming grief can be, so I'm glad you liked that. :)
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