When I made that statement about missing highschool; I only miss my friends, not the others who only brought me down. I can totally relate to what you're saying but though I haven't made any drastic decisions, I still feel stuck, myself. I don't give my time to be with other people and enjoy what's left of my youth. Today I worked ALL DAY, now I'm home and I'm supposed to be studying for a huge exam I have tonight. I needed a break and this is the only place I can still remain intact with my group of friends, even though I never talk to them face to face or even on the phone anymore. Some tell me it's a good thing I have this cycle to keep me in line...but it's not all that great because I LIVE by it. I don't let myself experience anymore. I wake up, go to work, go to the gym, do homework, go to class and hang out with my boyfriend. It's pathetic and it makes me sick because I get stressed out when I'm thrown off track. What I mean is...if I decide to hold off on homework and enjoy the rest of my day..I feel like I'm allowing
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hey chicky. i know EXACTLY what you were trying to say when you expressed your concern of failure...when you said you wish you had more free time to just relax but the limited amount of time doesnt allow it. i think most people in college feel overwhelmed like that. especially someone like you, i mean you talk about wanting to catch up and stuff, which is awesome *commends to that* i havent made one friend here NOT EVEN ONE that id actually take to starbucks. haha. most of my galpals are drinking partners..the majority of them have drug abuse issues...and....eh....i just have yet to develop a worth while relationship with any of them. youre just stuck in your little routine and sometimes that can be nice. at least you have certain parts of things that give your life meaning right now, such as chris, your school, etc. etc. if you feel like you should break a little part of your pattern then GO DO IT lol. dont be scerrred, ya only live once, child. and plus, we dont have our whole lives to be friggin 18...19...and 20 oh yea, cant forget
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