...ive been consumed....consumed in the darkness and running away from light. ive been doing nothing but lashing out at people and cutting them down....especially to one person. ive been a dagger to her heart ( Read more... )

I am heaven sent. Don't you dare forget. I am all you've ever wanted. What all the other boys all promised. Sorry I told. I
just needed you to know. I think in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems. Shelter from cold. We're
never alone. Coordinate brain and mouth. Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out. I wish I ( Read more... )

ive realized now what vee meant about me. I HAVE BEEN AN ASS!. ive been making some rude comments and assuming things...ive been a real basterd. i dont what has come over me.  this isnt who i am, maybe something hit a nerve in me i dont know.......all i can say is im sorry to the ones i have hurt.....

so shit. it seems as though ive started a fire of some sort with the misunderstanding that people told me of amandas intentions for steve. i couldve sworn u guys told me that it was a challange for her to try to control him since he didnt take shit from her. so either 1. i misunderstood, 2. u guys rele did say that just dont rerember, or 3. this is ( Read more... )

im drowning in confusion, im so messed up in the head i dont know what the hell im doing. im tired of this bullshit being thrown at me. i cant take this....i feel like im being used and ive felt this way for awhile, like im a security blanket for when things fuck up. FUCK THAT! theres so many things i want to say but it wont be heard, so many ( Read more... )

so lets see, things have been changing these past weeks. people have changed a bit, new surroundings. but just kinda the same old shit that happens all the time but w/e im use to it ( Read more... )

War all of the time In the shadow of the New York skyline We grew up too fast falling apart Like the ashes of American flags And we’re blowing in the wind We don’t know where to land So we kiss like little kids We used to be very tall buildings We’ve been falling for so long Now your eyes follow the sign on the edge of town They offer a welcome ( Read more... )

So let me drown so I can breathe again
I’m through choking and suffocating
on alter egos and alterior motives
which weigh you down and take control of
the way you are and the things that you need
the life you live and the dreams that you dream
distort and blur all in slow motion
they broke you down and now you're broken
and it’s sadder than the saddest ( Read more... )

ive been drinking every night for 3 nights. for reasons that many know but its just fucked up and other reasons that cannot be explained. i couldve controlled myself but i just let go....i wanted some things in my head to go away ( Read more... )

well its been a long week but im back hos! there were some good times on my vacation but many parts of it i wish a certian somone was there (need i say her name? oh and i know she is going to comment and be like its someone else im talking about :P, and sorry if its goin to make the others sick but common gimme a break here i have some incentive ( Read more... )