Ive been thinking about this lately, and it has got me questioning some things. Have you ever had a moment in which you perceived something completely different than what it actually was ? Not only visual, but audio as well. You only later figure out that the information that you took in the form of visual or audio was false, and you have to tell ( Read more... )

I feel as if i have been wearing a blindfold over my eyes. Only now when i finally take it off can i see all of the world, yet it is so complicated i cannot possible understand it. It kinda makes me want to put the blindfold back on, but the greater part of my mentality says that i shoulden't so i wont. It's just change.... thats all that life is. ( Read more... )

Why does noone ever understand at all. Not a single human being understands this concept except me, and its so messed up.

I often feel as if I am over analyzing the world. So many things in this world don't make any sense whatsoever. It just twists you up mentally trying to get something out of nothing. I just won't think as much..... That seems like the best method. Think about the things that make sense, but if they make no sense then i just won't think about it.

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I feel like im holding a wolf by its mouth, and i dont want to be holding on and i dont want to let go. It's really the unique situation.

It's that moment in when you mentally break. You have been fucked up so many days that your so mentally spun you dont know what it feels like to be sober. You wonder if you are close to being sober again, and you try to think about how long its been since you have last eaten. How long as it been since you have consumed water. How long has it been ( Read more... )

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It feels like im hiding half of my life from this journal and life with 90% of everyone else in its entirety, and i hate it. However i am not quite ready to tell the truth of everything. Some people just woulden't accept it. They would freak out, and hate me forever for some things, and i would just assume let them live a lie if i can be more happy ( Read more... )

Sometimes in order to push ahead you have to knock yourself down a few notches first. That's what i have found to be true anyways.