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Aug 31, 2007 20:27

As I said in the old place, I am done there. I hope I don't get bitched out much more this weekend. But hey, knock yourselves out. Just don't ask me to open any more veins.

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loud99 September 1 2007, 02:04:42 UTC
Brian, you're breaking my heart over here. I'm sorry if you felt attacked, that wasn't my intention. Now I regret opening my big, fat internet mouth.

Re: the no friends thing? That isn't healthy! And you KNOW that Justin would never wish that for you. I saw Michael mentioned from others, and he's a perfect example. Despite the issues him and Justin have had, Justin has always encouraged your friendship with him, because he knows you want/need it. And Ted...he's like your work BFF (hopefully that made you smile more than cringe).

Now stop being so dramatic. You're getting yourself worked up and becoming overwhelmed with the Roger thing and the tricking rules (if it makes you feel better, I don't fully understand them either, despite the numerous times Justin has explained them). Separate the issues, break them down, and then discuss with Justin. It'll all work out.

I imagine the make-up sex, after all this angst, is going to be more amazing than usual. ;)

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brian_pa September 2 2007, 03:39:32 UTC
Wonder why "make up sex" is so hot? Must be all that adrenalin mixed with testosterone, that makes for an explosive "cock"tail.

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shadownyc September 1 2007, 03:03:06 UTC
I think your last post to Justin was lovely and demonstrated that you can be a terrific partner. Bravo!

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brian_pa September 2 2007, 03:29:46 UTC
Thanks. Sometimes this Partner business is what they call "a challenge."

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arrowthroughme September 1 2007, 07:45:50 UTC
Once you will realize that someone will be a friend, without any strings, I hope you are ready to try again.

Have you ever considered the possibility that someone might like you just for yourself and not for your cock?

It's possible, you know, that there are people out there who will kept on being interested in a friendship, without you trying ti interest them with innuendos and stuff.

You have far more to offer to people than banter,

I genuinely just like you being grumpy! And sharp. And sarcastic!

You ARE a good man!

Nicki

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brian_pa September 2 2007, 03:31:07 UTC
"Grumpy" is easy. So are "sharp" and "sarcastic." It's the "sincere" shit I have trouble with.

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arrowthroughme September 2 2007, 05:50:04 UTC
You're also kind and caring and loving.

...

Yes, you are!

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anonymous September 1 2007, 16:14:52 UTC
You're really a wonderful father to both Gus and Peter. m :)

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brian_pa September 2 2007, 03:32:14 UTC
I am not officially or unofficially Peter's father, and I will never be. He's got a dad already, albeit a twat. If a macho asshole can be a twat.

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jans_intentions September 3 2007, 03:42:51 UTC
Brian, I only have one suggestion for you to consider later. I know that as a survivor of some things, you probably have a buried rage inside you. I have it too. It's why I actually chose not to have children so I think you are braver than I.

Nietzsche was right about the shadow of monsters.

I think since you are afraid of exposing Peter to your darker side that maybe one day you might explain in some way that your home life was not ideal and that you aren't angry with him, but that sometimes you need a bit of space to deal with it.

Let Justin take care of you now. He does it very well.

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