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[brian_pa]

You can comment, how can I stop you? About J's "revelations." But don't expect me to explain anything. Because I won't.

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[jans_intentions]

I'm glad that if you feel those places are too rough you don't bring Justin there. I mean, you were once his sexual tutor. And my comment is not meant to be disrespectful of him. I guess I suffer a tiny bit from 'protectiveness.' Hope he'll forgive me for that and recognize it is not condescending.

This is a really loaded question and I don't mean it to be re: you and Justin, but I'm just curious if you ever went there with other friends of yours. I guess I'm just trying to sort of get a sense of it.

I'm kind of sorry you won't enlighten us a little. Not because I want to pressure you (not that I have that power) but because I admit I really have very little clue about what would be roughsex according to you. My imagination is probably far worse than reality. Maybe that's true for Justin if he doesn't know what these places are like...

You did mention that sometimes things have gotten close to being out of control for you and Justin while you've both been tricking. What made you worry for him?

[jans_intentions]

BTW, your choice of icon made me laugh. You almost look like you are anticipating putting us in our places.

[brian_pa]

I did not say that things were "close to being out of control," while tricking with Justin. I just said I did not want him experiencing certain things because he IS sensitive, he's an artist and he is gentle without being fragile. Not that there's anything he couldn't handle, but he would not like it, even if, especially if, he tried to keep up with me. That is just outside his personality.

Michael accompanied me once. ONCE. That was a mistake on my part, needless to say I was completely whacked out on something. Mikey IS fragile, though he'd never admit it in a million years. The Professor takes care of him; he's safe with Ben.

[jans_intentions]

Thank you for clarifying, Brian. I've been mulling over a lot of what you said to Justin.

There has been a lot hinted about the setting of these establishments of roughsex (mainly that they would not be to Justin's taste), and given your personality and how you talk about him 'keeping up with you,' I'd assume that you are your usual dominating self.

Do you not choose to expose him to some facet of yourself that comes to the surface during these visits?

[mdlaw]

You know what a psychiatrist would say about you need to punish yourself in emotional times? HA just kidding.

I think you have a very large soul, that's why you need MANLY ways to release your feelings.

You do realize how ironic it is for YOU to tell Justin not to worry: don't you?

Personally I don't want to hear about you rough sex adventures. m

[brian_pa]

Who said anything about "punishment?" Nobody, that's who. Don't jump to conclusions.

Or go ahead and jump. But there's no safety net.

[mdlaw]

I realized that after I wrote it, but I figured "What the Hell". m :D

[lady_jane]

Oh, yes, we read. I read this:

And so what if I don't like you seeing me like that? Why is there anything wrong with that. It's not some psychological thing. It's just.....something else. I don't know what exactly, but it's just not. Whatever.

Bwhahahahahah!!!!

Oh my god, that's brilliant. Or not. Whatever.

[brian_pa]

Not everything in life needs to be psychoanalyzed. Some things just ARE.

"To do is to be." -Socrates
"To be is to do." -Kant
"Do be do be do." -Sinatra

[furriboots]

I must admit to being at a complete loss here. This is completely outside any of my personal experiences so I really have no idea what to comment about.

I did read Justin's comment as follows:
"I may not still totally understand and I know I'm not totally happy about it, but it's better for me to know what's going in your head than imaging all sorts of horrors that are worse."

I get what he is saying here. I think it is better for you to tell him if/when this situation arises. If he has to guess what is happening then he thinks the worse and he worries more. They always say "Better the devil you know " Imagination can be far more devastating.

Whatever you decide, Brian, be careful because the bitches worry about you too.

[minkprisoner]

No judgement from me I understand you might feel too much of your personal life was revealed there but perhaps for the best? At least J felt you had both talked over something important and that has been causing tension between you.

There has been a lot of tension on either side recently and you two have not really had enough time together. I hope you take that time tonight and plan something for next weekend that is just the two of you...

[brian_pa]

NOTHING is going on in my head.

Let me rephrase that...

[furriboots]

Ha ha, cute. Since I quoted Justin I think it is Justin's piece of mind that is important so letting him know what is "going on in your head" may be a small price to pay for his lessened concern for you.(may even result in less pressure on you)

You know I really don't believe you. I think that there is always something going on in your head(s). You let Justin know about "Nothing" very frequently.

back to alone time

[reinventself]

I really agree that time to oneself to process and reflect is a necessary component in real communication. Otherwise life consists of "talking heads" or constant interruptions. Reflection time before owning feelings and then communication produces some interesting results. You are on the right track for you.