inadequacy

[brianho]

I wish I could shake the feeling that the best I've got isn't good enough and that all I have to give isn't enough. Meanwhile, I'm just trying desperately to keep today positive.

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[frunobulax]

You never met him, but Günther's predecessor was a lovely little black-and-white kitteh named Wilhelm. My Wilhelm-cat was very spotty and very pointy. I referred to him as The Pointy Cat. (Bear with me, I'm going somewhere with this.) When my son called me from NY, he asked how the family is, etc., and I always gave him the same rundown - cousins are fine, grandma/grandpa send their greetings, Powder is still large, and Wilhelm is still pointy

[brianho]

Thanks for pointing this out to me. :)

I will strive to think pointy thoughts.

[wackedoncrack]

I'm pretty sure I have nothing to say that will turn your thinking around besides that you know for a fact that you are not only an amazing friend to me and to everyone who knows you, but you are an amazing person period.

Anyway, when I get in those kinds of moods I like to look at my favorite LOLcats to make me smile. So here are some of my favorite pictures of both LoLCats and randomness:

[brianho]

Thanks. Those were cute.

I'm not having too much trouble being superficially happy. I felt like a complete goof last night laughing hysterically at anime even while the rest of the room was often silent.

I'm just having trouble getting deeper--finding an inner happiness and satisfaction with myself. I think I've been setting my expectations too high and my inability to meet them just keeps me further from my goal.

In the end, I just wish I felt as good about myself as people seem to speak of me. Thanks for being one of those people though. :)

[thenarus]

This will seem funny at first, but it works surprisingly well.

Have a direct, from-the-hip Q&A session with yourself, aloud.

And yeah, I'll back up what everyone else here has said...you're a great guy, and an amazing friend, Brian. Good luck solving your inner mysteries.