sometimes i'm on the ball. sometimes i'm not. today i forgot my math hw. i am too lazy to watch the debate and i don't wanna study for my french test. i don't get it. there is so much i get, but then i don't get.

my mom left for hawaii last thursday and whenever my mom leaves things suck more than usual around here. my dad gets hella pissed off that he has to take over her responsibilities and i guess mine increase as well. i got an email from my mom from that tropical paradise far away. it consisted in two things. her telling me that it was bad for me to ( Read more... )

i don't really know why i livejournal anymore. it seems so pointless. i have too much hw and i doubt people read them. I'm very been so busy and i barely have anytime to live my life, let alone livejournal. there is not one day that i don't have a meeting. and i just plan on the weekend. i wish people would stop calling me weird. i am who i am. and ( Read more... )

we have been in school for 13 days. junior is so crazy. so much is happening so fast. i have switched math classes. i no longer have classes with Jenny and Megan and Alana and Rob and Mehra and all my good friends. It's kinda tough, but I hope I have some new friends in my new math class. Honors Chemistry is such an easy class. I have gotten 100% ( Read more... )

couldn't look me in the eye. she apologizes. i didn't make enough to take her out tonight. she begs me not to worry. i won't turn away. she doesn't need a world of riches. all she begged for was sweet kisses. i love you ( Read more... )

well i managed to go through the first three days of my junior year in shock, astonishment, amazment, confusion, hate, laughter, and so much more. i have ms fedio first. she treats us all like kindergartners. so far it all seems very easy and piece of cakeish. next i have honors chemistry. i was kinda freaked out about that class but i'm not too ( Read more... )

this weekend was so awesome. so my friend picked me up on sunday and we chilled at her house for a bit. then we went to her boyfriend's house. and we chilled there and some more people came over and we ate and drove around and shit and acted like we were hella drunk and did crazy shit. we crashed this playground and did stupid stuff at it. then as ( Read more... )

four more days. four more days to get ready. dream. think. imagine. forgive. find out. forget. hate. plane. love. see. realize. shop. sing. restore my voice. find myself. be me. thank you juliet for your comment. thanks for keeping me as a friend. i really love you! last night i ran from my room and went and looked at the sky. a life as mysterious ( Read more... )

i thought it would be okay. i was convinced. people have moved on. people have gone away from my life. they are gone. and i am being lied to and cheated and played. i'm living in one huge, scary dream. no school comfort and no home comfort. people have moved the fuck on and they have forgotten me. people don't return my calls or my IMs, people ( Read more... )

on wednesday abbie will leave for two months. on friday claire, one of the people at hale i have known the longest, will be leaving for italy for one year. on october 4th my uncle will leave for iraq for 18 months. school will start in six days and i have no idea what to expect from it. no idea what's so ever. all my friends seem so distant to me. ( Read more... )