dear diary ( Read more... )

there is so much that i want to say sometimes. but then, a second later...i don't want to say anything at all.

i can't wait for tour.

*nerd alert* i am really excited for iphone software update 2.0. third party apps! fuck yeah!

being around this for so long is going to kill me.

it should've been my hands around your waist.

i really want to call and wish you happy birthday. but it wouldn't mean anything.

edit:
today made me realize, none of that matters. i have a life to live. and i'm going to do just that. i stand on my own two feet. rarely will i need someone to hold me up.

everyone called me dumb. including myself. i thought things would be alright. i don't know what they are. and i don't think i ever did.

i'm still not entirely sure what i'm doing, yet.

palatka florida.
apartment.

maybe you don't hear me because i'm not screaming loud enough.

i'm glad most of all that right after my set, brian just hugged me. he knew exactly what i meant.