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If I had remained married to Matt, today would have been our 24th wedding anniversary. I still remember our wedding day - and how sick to my stomach I was. We eloped, really. I was so scared someone was going to ruin it. The sun was so bright as I stood outside and waited for him to come pick me up in my eyelet cotton blouse and skirt, with my hair and makeup done as well as I could in the dorm bathroom and in a pair of borrowed white sandals.
Funny - with that wedding, I remember being sun-blinded and scared. In six days, it will be Josh's and my first anniversary. Of that wedding? I remember feeing 'complete' and happy and so very, very loved.
Night and day.
And then - this is the DailyOm horoscope for today:
August 21, 2006
Release The Past
Taurus Daily Horoscope
You may notice mood swings today that may be due to memories from the past. There could be many emotional triggers that leave you feeling uncertain about how to handle various situations. You might feel that the past is more present to you than the present and that your ways of dealing with what arises doesn’t reflect who you are but rather who you were. Today would be a good time to become aware of these triggers and remind yourself that the past cannot hurt you. Should you feel that your thoughts about what happened previously affect your frame of mind, you can gently tell yourself that they have no power over you now. You might even repeat to yourself, “I am here in the now.” You could find that this helps you live more in the present and could help lighten your mood.
Reminding ourselves that the past holds no sway over us allows us to live in the present moment. It is easy for us to define ourselves and our actions based on either our past experiences, moods, or defense mechanisms. However, when we consciously bring ourselves into the now, our problems with the past dissipate. We see that there is very little in the present that threatens us and that the only thing in life we can change is our minds-we can’t change anything about the past. By releasing the power the past has over you today, you will discover the sweet wonders that await you in the present.
- So VERY true!