If I could make a list
Of my mistakes and regrets
I'd put your name on top
And every line after it

Because every inch of hope
Becomes a world of shame
I've had to walk through
Each and every day

And if I screamed "you were wrong"
At the top of my lungs
It would never return
All the faith that I've lost

Because there is nothing left to say
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today has been the hardest day by far. We all knew that this is what it was going to come down to and no matter how prepared you can be, you just break down. Everyone was crying, even grandpa, who never shows emotion. Dad too....he was crying all afternoon, he thanked me for being there. My grandma has been sick for the past couple years, with a ( Read more... )

weeks and months. turned into weeks and days. This is it. Its all going to happen soon. Im so fucking depressed. You can hear it in my voice. I can hear it when I talk. How the fuck am i going to deal with this? the answer lies within the future

( everything, reminds me of her )

all this sorrow and all this joy, all happens around this time.  Congratulations goes out to Justin and his soon to be wife. Thats really fucking cool. Justin is a great person, Not only is he my best friends brother, but a good friend of mine. Tonight was the grimms x-mas party, which i attend every year, because i have nothing better to do. And ( Read more... )

( You know im still here, the faithful one )

"the worst stab wound is the one to the heart. sure, most people survive it but the heart is never quite the same. there's always a scar. which is meant, i guess, to remind you that even for a little while someone made your heart beat faster. and that's a scar you can live with. proudly. all the days of your life."

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its 6 0clock on tues. I go home tommorw, sometime. im trying to get on an earlier flight stand-by. I think i kicked my econ exam's ass the other day. I also think this paper on self identiy in mary rowlandsons, narrative of the captivity and restoration of mary rowlandson and ben franklins autobiography is decent. Yesterday in american literature, ( Read more... )

I'd Rather Die

Than Lose You

( Breathless Im a mess, kissless im in distress )

Im going to be double journaling. Within the past year and a half or so ive been writing. It makes me happy and feel better. It helps me cope with everything thats going on in my life, along with a way to express myself through writing and or song lyrics. I plan to turn the stuff that I write into songs. For real this time.

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