everynight i feel like giving up like its not gonna work like i was an idiot to think it would like my fears arnt unfounded that what i am afraid of will come true wats so different this time? do ppl really change? the situation hasnt......i work so hard to change for him i sacrifice who i am to make him happy i try and hold it all in ....deal with ( Read more... )

i see someone i see someone twice a week for help once with a group and once all by myself....i see someone for help but i feel my problems are insignificant that i am wasting his time....not that he feels i am wasting his time but that i am wasting his time. i make mountains out of mole hills. i do stuff i know will hurt my emotions i worry i dont ( Read more... )

I know it will hurt ( Read more... )

I open myself to the pain ( Read more... )

I know he loves me.....I hate that he won't talk to me.....I hate that whenever I get mad at him he gets mad at me and I beg him for forgiveness.....I hate the way I feel like things have changed.....I hate the way I would go through a thousand days of pain for one second of happiness with him.....I hate that he is my world and without him I ( Read more... )

So for the past week I have been having diffaculty accessing my application for a job. Today I finally get access to the application and I accidently sumbit it with most of it not filled in. I fucking hate my life why does nothing ever go right?????

So christmas was awsome n I got alot of great stuff, and I've seen Brad twice since school got out. We've talked about our future together I got really bored one day n started planning our wedding and the thing is when I told him he wasn't creeped out he said it sounded perfect and that he couldnt wait (but that we have to lol)Another night he ( Read more... )

The Snow Ball was amazing last night. Everyong looked so nice!!! Julia, my date for the evening, was beautiful. Kendra did my hair n' it was AMAZING!! I loved it!!! I had so much fun and danced the night away, my feet were killing me despite having removed my shoes. When we were leaving Kendra decided she was going to a friends to drink...my first ( Read more... )

he got here yesterday at like 9 in the morning and we spent the day together. I'm sure the girls on my floor can tell u wat fun we had....Colleen says their all talking about it but I don't care their all cunts ne wayz yes i was haveing sex yes i enjoyed it n was loud wat now bitches?!?! dont try and pretend u dont have sex too hmmm who fucked in ( Read more... )

So I went to open mic night n' I had been talking to Shannon about reading one of my poems n' she said I could do it, but I was afraid so she signed me up but i was starting to chicken out so I told Erin to cross my name off the list and then like a couple more ppl go so I'm thinking im good n that she crossed me off but nooooooo the ec says " ( Read more... )