is it really possible for me to be swayed so easily??? or was it that what happened in sc what i've been waiting for??? hmmmm i couldn't move there, although i was asked to...the only reason why is b/c my career is up here. It's making me feel so torn but i need to come to a decision and soon (not about moving i mean about some other things, now ( Read more... )

Well i'm back and yes it was very hard to say goodbye to him. however this is how i feel...the fact that he's miles away sucks... a lot! I wish he was here in ny, i wish he would move here. The fact that we're still together, makes me VERY happy!! He makes me happy!

all i have to say right now is i don't know what i'm doing!

you would think after almost 10yrs i would learn my lesson...but i honestly don't know if i ever will! He still knows how to get to me, i still love him, i still care about him, and the thought of him getting into a relationship with someone other than me still makes me crazy! Yet he still knows how to make me smile ( Read more... )

i realized today that i've let myself get in too deep, have feelings i tried to push back so now what's left....there's still confusion over him, i never know what he's thinking which is hard for me, he's still really hard to read and i can't tell if this is just a way for him to pass the time, or to make me a "memory" he keeps telling me he doesn' ( Read more... )

it's been a good while since i wrote on here, i think i've tried to a couple of times over the past few months but something always stops me or i always delete what i've written. So i'm on tour again, i've been on tour this time since nov and i'll be done in a month! I really can't wait, i love touring but i hate the drama and pettiness that comes ( Read more... )

I haven't said anything because i really haven't been sure what was going on. I've been sick for awhile now, on one hand they still aren't sure why i can't eat anything without getting nauseous, why i'm nauseous all the time, why i am constantly in pain and so on. On the other hand, while in the process of getting tons of tests done to figure all ( Read more... )

well it seems like i'm going to end up having to go back b/c i can only stay at my cousin's until tonight and even though my friend told me i would be able to stay with her, she's now telling me she's not sure if i can. So basically i will have no where else to go...this fucking sucks!

Is it considered running away if you're 23? my dad and i got in an argument last night (what else is new), i cursed at him and he hit me. He hasn't hit me in a couple of years but this on top of the verbal abuse i get from him...i've had it! I'm treated like crap by him, he thinks that he has always been some wonderful father, he's never been ( Read more... )

His dad came and picked him on wed morning and took him back to CT. He's in detox (he went in on wed) and he's supposed to be there for only a few days and then go to rehab. We can't talk to him for 4-6 weeks but i miss him and just wish i could hear his voice. I just want to hear from him how he's doing. I'm worried about him, i know detox is ( Read more... )