so, have you ever been kind of fooling around with someone who you don't really like and who really doesn't like you even though they say they do and when you sit down and talk to them about it they realize they don't really like you and then you end it? and then you are sad ( Read more... )

today was uneventful ( Read more... )

i let jonathon read my book thus far. i handed him the manuscript and left to get drunk. i couldn't watch him read it. he finished it today and we talked about it for a while. it was positive. he found it coherent, which was one of my major concerns ( Read more... )

when i worked at the rave we had technologic on our playlist. well not the technologic that was on the daft punk cd, no that would have made it too easy. no, not that one but a better one. today as i was driving back to lexington to do some damamge control i started singing (talking) the song to myself and determined to discover this new remix ( Read more... )

it's only 11:30 and i am drunk on a sunday.

my life = subpar.

i just feel like shit. i feel sad. i don't know what it is really, its just that i feel odd. it looks so pretty outside with everything cooling down, i'm taking jackets with me wherever i go in hopes that i'll need them. i'm working and not hating it. i'm seeing my family for events that i should (birthdays, football games) and its not a big ( Read more... )

i think i have yet to mention my car troubles. well my car, about two months ago, decided to die because it wanted a new starter. i payed 296 for that. about a month ago it died because it wanted a new alternator. i payed 406 for that. then just last friday it decided that it was in hard need of a new air compressor, which i thought was not ( Read more... )

i used to be the type of person who loved waking up next to someone and cuddling and kissing and all that mushy stuff. but this morning i woke up and just wanted you to get out of my bed and go back to your own. figures, right. i want something for like a year and then i hate it. oh well ( Read more... )

i sometimes look back at my time at the rave and wonder "why was i drunk so much ( Read more... )

i am going to bleach my hair blonde. not today, not this week but before my 22nd (ahem....again) birthday i will be a blonde ( Read more... )