I see hell in your eyes...taken in by surprise...touching you makes me feel alive...
This is going to seem really odd but I think about him way too much & I'll go insane is I don't say some of the stuff that I love about him.
Just more proof I'm hopelessly inlove with this guy:)
Uh wow I have alot to update on so bare with me.
Thursday-Something rather odd happened. I'm not sure if I should put this in here but I'm going to anyways. I figure since I haven't updated in a few days Joe thinks this journal is dead so he'll never know I wrote about what I'm about to write about. Wow that was confusing. Anyways we were having actually great, amazing, mind blowing sex. He proposed. I thought for about 5 minutes he was serious. Then as soon as we got in the car I knew he was kind of regreting it. I figure if he really wants to marry me then he'll stay with me. & next time when he does propose he really shouldn't do it during sex..not the exact best time. Although I can say I was flattered that I could fuck someone into proposing.
Friday-Skipped school completely. I seem to be making a habit of it. But I skipped for the perfect & only real good reason I have: Joe. At first I thought it amazing I even got away with it considering I was in a panic on the phone with the attendence office from my school. But I didn't get at all caught & as far as my parents know I only saw Joe after school. The whole day rocked though. We went to Joe's house & attempted to sleep. Ha! Attempted...ok he fell asleep & I was pretty much playing with his dick because he left me with a great deal of sexual tension plus I just like playing with it...*looks around paranoid* thats completely normal damnit! After about two sex romps we went to get food ^.^ SUBWAY! :-D That kicked all ass. Beat the hell out of sitting with assholes at lunch. Anyways bad thoughts. We went back to his house & watched The Simpsons Tree House of Horror 6,7,8, & 12. (I think) Had another round of sex then watched wrestling. Mmmm wrestling...mmmm Joe having abosolutely useless but sexy wrestling knowledge. Haha I should list a few funny things that happened around this time...
Since we'd been having sex atleast twice an hour ya know his dick is going to get tired really fast. So I had to do something to get it up. But just as the idea pops into my head Joe not knowing my devious plan decides to call my mom & tell her he is going to "pick me up from school" Muwahha. Just as he gets ahold of my mom I whip out the extra good tongue action blow job. It was really funny to hear him try to talk to her while I was just having my way with his wank. Whats even funnier is when the sex did happen again my mom called back & his dick went completely soft. Ok..not funny for me. But atleast my moms voice doesn't keep it hard!
To continue the story (and heres where it gets interesting!) Joe turned on his black light for some unknown reason. My braceletes, necklaces, & hair glowed. As I sit there naked I make a wish for my nipples to glow. Ta da! Joe has black light paint ^.^ Wow that turned into some kinky body art shit. Very pretty though. Joe enjoyed himself watching me skwirm because the fucking paint was cold. Just as he gets done he goes and gets a camera. I didn't think he'd actually do it but he did. There might now be random pictures of me naked covered in black light paint somewhere. God knows why he'd waste a picture on that.
After our little paint fun I figured I'd rather take a bath then just sit there, be cold, nasty, & bright. So Joe get the bath thing ready cause I have no idea who his bath works. Then as I get in he just sits there & watchs me. I found this oddly amusing that he'd want to sit there & watch. Rather flattering too. But then he took pictures. So if anyone sees a picture of a naked chick with pink hair, uber small boobs, & tons of paint smeared everywhere somewhere on google then please contact me so I can kick Joes ass. But along with the bath came a new discovery of mine. Joe likes to watch me naked, wet, half submerged in water. Hmmm...boner? Hell yes. Score! Bath tub sex!!!!!!!!!!!! It ruled. I had seriously the whole time just wanted him to get naked & jump in but it was more fun having to in a way seduce him. Ok way more fun. I hope to do it alot more too. After that we went out to eat at Hy-Vee. YAY!
I thought he had to work that night and I was slightly pissed for some unknown reason when he left so when he came back I was really kind of stunned. Happy. Gleeful (hehe what the fuck?) Anyways he spent the night. It was great except for the fact I was half on the couch half off. Ugh. I really need to put a bed in my room then drag him up here. Because for some reason he despises me sleeping at his house. Oh well. Figures.
Anyways I woke up with my hand some how on his cock (this happens alot) & we had 3 minutes of sex. Doesn't bother me which I think Joe finds odd. I could get absolutely nothing out of sex as long as he came. I guess that's kind of odd right? Hmm guess thats why I like giving him head alot too. Ha! Funny thing is I think it dawned on him that I like to give him pleasure more then get it. I aim to please :) He has given me enough this week\weekend already to where I'm good for like another 3 or so weeks. But theres another thing. I just have this love with having sex with him. He's not like Steve was at all during sex. He touchs me & kisses me. & usually after sex he'll actually want to lay next to me. It's great. :)
I guess in the last week I've kind of fallen more inlove with him. If that makes any sense at all.
He is the only person I could see all the time & not get tired of. I can't get enough of him.
Tonight he asked me if I was sick of him because we've been together constantly since Friday mourning.
I told him the truth. Less then the truth. I didn't make it sound too believeable. I just can't. Too afraid to get hurt some how. I dunno.
But god I've been so fucking happy the last couple weeks. Fuck...for the last 4 months that it's kind of odd. A great kind of odd.
Not used to someone wanting to be around me. Even though I kind of force him to sometimes. & I'm so afraid one day whatever love he has for me will just got away.
I think I should back off before I...
a.)Get too attached (too late:\)
b.)End up driving him away\scaring him off
c.)Make him get tired of me\get bored with me...
I have some many paranoias yet when I'm with him they all go away.
It seems like I'm happy. The perminate kind.
I'm in a content mood because Joe is going to make me dinner tomorrow night ^.^ that & this whole week\weekend ROCKED!
But you know whats really dumb..I miss Joe even though I've seen him for the last more then 24 hours. I'm stupid.
Later,
Spooky
P.s. - Ok this is going to be a really weird question.
Is it normal to have sex dreams about your boyfriend while sleeping next to him? :-x
10 things guys should know about chicks
1. If we are crying, not talking, or we leave then you fucked up.
2. Your are sexiest - driving, sweating, or being actually nice to a little kid.
3. We love when you hold our hands. Especially while you’re driving.
4. Want us to do something sex related? Alls ya gotta do is say the word if you know were in the right mood.
5. Do not call another chick hot right infront of us chances are we probley already noticed the fact she was attractive & didn't need to be fucking notified.
6. Our guy getting a little jealous not only makes us feel wanted but earns you booty points.
7. Nibbling is good, biting is better, taking chucks of flesh is not exactly healthy for anyone.
8. If you got balls prove it - tell us how you actually feel about something.
9. If we don't feel loved, we'll start looking elsewhere.
10. If you fuck up then suck up or else your going to have hell until you do.