So, I had an incredibly bad day yesterday ( Read more... )

 Sometimes, words are fucking meaningless.

 I don't know if she knows that I know that she knows about what I did. But, that pack of playing cards mysteriously ended up in my purse.

I hate everything right now. I want to set the world on fire and feel the burn. 

you know what eats my shorts the most? That I find your fucking desert rose no more remarkable than a dandelion.

Well,  2 weeks ago I was making an effort to post more often. Then I got some bad news and now I don't know what to say ( Read more... )

I realized that in my journal I sound so pessimistic. I appear to hate relationships. I should just mention one thing. no matter what shit I'm typing, I really am very happy right now.  and Daniel is pretty fucking amazing. 

maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe not. I haven't talked to Daniel since 7pm on Friday. I actually feel pretty good about that. It was a self regulated test to see how pathetic I am. I dunno if I should say I passed or failed. I had a low pathetic rating. 5 years ago this weekend, I was probably calling rob obsessively every few hours.  ( Read more... )

I'm back in Chicago again. No, I was not in Michigan over the weekend. I went to St. Louis for Tory's funeral. listening to his neice talk was one of the hardest things. seeing the pool of blood that leaked out of his ruined skull in the drainage ditch ranked pretty high too. Although Jesse's crazy crazy erratic behavior scared me the most. I ( Read more... )

I'm back from Arizona. It was hott, but bearable. Seriously, Michigan has prepared me for all types of weather. It was fucking crazy beautiful down there. it looked a lot like japan, if you replace the rice paddies with desert. it was flatter than illinois, but with monumental mountains plopped down randomly. No foothills, in other words. In a few ( Read more... )