[ Private: Why I did it.... I dunno, I didn't exactly have a great answer at the time and maybe I still don't but if I'm gonna go with anything it's coz I feel fucking useless. I mean if I'm the big idiot that everyone says I am then there isn't much point to it, is there? But shit. No matter how stupid as I am, Terada's got to be the stupidest person I know. I don't get it. ]