Stress.
So I've been fairly stressed for the last month. It's gotten to the point where it's impacting my sleep.
Part of it is just not sleeping (ie your basic insomnia). Other nights is that after I lie down and start to doze, I'm woken by a wave of nausea, a need to vomit. But nothing happens. When I lie back down, the wave strikes again. And every 5 minutes after that for the rest of the night.
This is not cool.
I blame money issues as the initial source. Back in November, I lost my job. No biggie, I have student loans. Later on in December, I asked Roommate number 3 to vacate the premises because I was tired of his idiocy. I gave him 6 weeks notice. I figured I'd have to cover his rent in Feb, but that's no problem: student loans are a fair whack of cash, and I could live with the extra expense so long as it was only for one month.
My student loan didn't arrive in Jan. Several weeks later, they finally inform me that they had attempted to deposit the money in a bank account that I terminated several months ago. Well... They kinda informed me. I emailed them to ask what the hell was going on. They phoned me the next day (not in response to my email), and sent me a letter, telling me the money went to this old account that I don't use. They replied to my email to tell me that everything was fine...
So I immediately mailed them my correct banking info, and I got an email yesterday telling me that it will be 10 working days until I receive my Student loan. 6 weeks into the semester.
And today I got a letter from the JET Programme, telling me the details of my interview location and time. It's scheduled for March the 4th. Which is the same day that I'm due to be debating ethics in Cincinnati, Ohio. My dad phoned me this morning to tell me that he had booked his flight to Ohio. If I don't go to the Ethics Bowl, it's possible the whole team will be disqualified, as we are right on the minimum number of team members (3). Nevermind the fact that this totally screws my dad. This ratchets up my stress yet another notch.
In addition (yes, there's more), because of my lack of sleep (until about 6am or so), I've missed quite a lot of one particular English class. It's a 20th Century Irish Literature course, which is fairly easy in and of itself. But the prof has an attendance policy which I'm on the verge of breaking. And if I break it, he won't give me the credit for the course. No credit for this course = no graduation = no JET = tearing my goddamn hair out.
And then there's this Philosophy course I have on Kant. Initially I thought that I just didn't get it. Now I think that I get it, but it just doesn't make any sense. So I couldn't write the first essay (15%). I just don't see how I can take this point of view seriously. But again, failing this course = no graduation = freaking out time.
I am really not in a good place right now. Oh, and that English class has a quiz tomorrow morning. On a novel which I haven't read.
Me no likey.