Thanks...I need to work on identifying the strength that others can see. It's weird you know, somedays I feel it, I really start to believe that I have it. But then something happens and begin to question everything. Anyway...
I just got through reading your post. I'm really sorry, but no hugs I promise.
yeah, I can be a bit like that. Sometimes I can feel like I am beautiful and strong, but other days it all fades away and I feel totally worthless. We can build on identifying the truth together.
Who wants to be Jesus Christ? Not me.brioiOctober 13 2003, 05:22:50 UTC
Yeah...I've never understood why people say/think the things they do about me. I have always been told how much of a "leader" I am, and how much I inspire people or whatever. I’ve never set out to make so many friends…and truth be told, I take them for granted. I have tons of people around me and I still have the gall to claim that I’m lonely or that no one understands me. I've never tried to make anyone see me in the way that they do. God knows that there are so many people out there that want to be liked, that want popularity and attention. Give it to them. They look at me and see someone that has it together, someone that they want to be friends with. I'm not sure why they do. Sometimes I believe I’m that person, but usually it isn't long before I am reminded that what they see is only a facade that isn't real. Often I wonder if it is me they are talking about...because it sounds so different than how I feel inside. Why do people build me up to be something that I'm not? I've never asked to be thrown in the front...to be people's
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hello my lovely, i'm sorry i couldn't get on this frickin' thing any sooner. and you know i read your journal! how could you just assume that i don't? anyway, i love you and hope you have a great weekend. so how did you like the movie? talk to ya later
I never just assumed you didn't read my journal...I honestly didn't know cuz I've not heard anything out of you for ever...not even when you said you'd hit me back last friday. But you eventually got around to it, so I love you again
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Side note,but should have been a main notewordsnotspokenOctober 18 2003, 13:39:46 UTC
You're a good friend and person, and I like to be involved in your life, even if it is just reading what is going on at the moment in your life in your journal. Hope that makes sense.
Re: Side note,but should have been a main notebrioiOctober 18 2003, 19:31:58 UTC
lol...at least my life can serve SOME purpose...even if it is just a form of entertainment or a distraction for others. I love reading about what is going on with you too. I like to keep tabs on ya, make sure you're doing ok, and also like to keep up with the latest from "issa". That is what my little nephew calls his auntie Melissa. It's so cute. I think of that when ever I see your posts on here. You should post more ya know. And what is the latest as far as a time frame of getting your other journal up and running. I wanna see.
Anyway...I'm glad you have an interest in my life. You've got me interested as well.
Re: Side note,but should have been a main notewordsnotspokenOctober 20 2003, 04:36:18 UTC
Hehe, I love the way your nephew says Melissa. That's so cute. My cousin has always pronunced my name Mesilla. Hehe, now my whole family calls me that. I love how little kids say people's names!
I don't post alot, because I said I wasn't going to use this journal. lol. I just like to keep to my word. I'll be letting you into my journal world all over again, soon. I always say soon. I don't intend it to last forever. It's stupid because I say I don't like to go back on my word, but then I go back on me being soon. Gosh, I always do that. But I promise my new journal will be up and running before the new year. Only two months and a week or so.
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I just got through reading your post. I'm really sorry, but no hugs I promise.
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Thanks for careing.
I hope youre doing ok.
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so how did you like the movie?
talk to ya later
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I'd like to have a read too! You're my daily fix. Or you're my fix whenever I hear from you or read your posts! lol.
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Anyway...I'm glad you have an interest in my life. You've got me interested as well.
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I don't post alot, because I said I wasn't going to use this journal. lol. I just like to keep to my word. I'll be letting you into my journal world all over again, soon. I always say soon. I don't intend it to last forever. It's stupid because I say I don't like to go back on my word, but then I go back on me being soon. Gosh, I always do that. But I promise my new journal will be up and running before the new year. Only two months and a week or so.
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