Does anyone get it?

[brioi]

It is very apparent to me that I am not seen by some of those that I call friends, as I would like to be. It may be my fault; in fact I know that it is. However, I feel somewhat incapable of altering my circumstance at the moment. I’m doing the best that I can with what I have. I want to be there for my friends in a much better way than I am able.

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[dbrose]

B

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[brioi]

I don’t think that you should deny how you feel about anything. If you can’t be honest with me, than what kind of friendship do we have? I understand what you are saying. One thing that you don’t see on my end, are that those times when we do talk, however very little they may seem, are there because I’ve gone out of my way to do all that I can so that I can have some sort of communication with you. I do the best I can. It seems that no matter what efforts that I make, you are going to continue to compare me to how I was when I first met you, when I had all the free time in the world compared to now. I don’t have that ability at the moment. I’m sure that this won’t be forever, but for the moment I really don’t have much control over this

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[brioi]

Part II of previous post

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[dbrose]

when I said 'if I need to let you go..' I didnt say that as a reaction towhat you said, or that you cant give me as much time.. I said that because its a thought that has crept into my head at times, not because I want to not be your friend or because I think it wouldnt affect me to not have you part of my life. Its because I dont see how I can do anything good for you, or for anyone else. Im a worthles failure and the world would be better of without me. I feel like Im standing on the moon screaming for help, but the world can not hear me. no matter what I cant think of what I can do to communicate across the vacum through which no sound can pass. I so desperatly want to be heard and have someone or somethng show me the way back home, safe on earth with other people, not stuck out on a barren landscape isolated off from those that I want to be close to. But all my attempts ram back and hit me in the face.. it turns out that I cant get myself heard because niether you or anyone else can read my thoughts when Im cut off and so far away

[tothewind]

“However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you”

(nods) you’re easy to love. And I’m so happy to have someone like you…well not just someone like you. I have the original. The only. I doubt there’s anyone else in the world exactly like you. Well, I know there’s not…and I’m rambling.
Anyway, I like you for who you are and what you’ve become in my life. I have shared SO much with you…for being someone whom I’ve never met but I consider you a friend ;) I’ll keep ya.
Yeah I’m not completely positive what you were trying to accomplish by writing this. The responses are so predictable. You’re so easy to love and so fun and everyone who has met you knows this. You’re so beautiful in so many ways, B. And you don’t even have to try. Oh well…all I care about is that I’m good enough to be in the B's club of significant friends.

I’m significant damn it!

I love you so much

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[brioi]

Jupi...can I just say how great I think you are. I actually wrote the above post because of a few things that happened within the last week or so, a few comments that were made, and a few feelings that I felt. But it had nothing to do with you, I promise. I know where you stand, and I love that about you. You've never judged me that I'm aware of, and if you have something to say, you say it. I really appreciate that

[wordsnotspoken]

B

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[brioi]

Melissa

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[wordsnotspoken]

B,

I love you and that is what happens when I love a person. I care for them! Please know that you have been a great friend to me and that I appreciate and am very fond of you and your friendship.

M