were in a break.... dont know for how long... i just know im scared shitless

he gives me attention and makes me laugh... and its more than obvious that he likes me. Hes very sweet! A top notch guy that any girl would love to be with. I know he would treat his girlfriend like a princess.

its nice to have that again... I forgot what it felt like

Today was alexs graduation at UB. he graduated with a bachelors in science of architecture. I am beyond proud of him, and so is the rest of my family. I know this was his day, and he deserved all the praise he recieved. But I couldnt help but feel in the shadows of all of it. Not once today did I hear "Im proud of you" or "congratulations", as a ( Read more... )

Just let me go
le me detach
so all of this just hurts less
nothing seems to numb this pain
it gets worse with each progressing day
Just an emptiness I feel
for what feeling I have left
No more brightness to my soul
no more beating in my chest
Take these tears
take this anguish away
take our dwindled love
I just want the hurt to go away

 I feel like a complete stranger in my own house. I am no longer living in my bedroom, which I have grown to love since second grade. It is being painted because we are getting the house ready to sell. So now I am living in my sisters vacant room, which doesnt feel right at all. I have no car and I feel trapt here. I have no escape. I am either at ( Read more... )

 
Can you just hear me out for minute?

I’m going to be completely honest with you ok? Living at home sucks! It’s driving me crazy. I tasted freedom, lost it, and I’m going nuts! I have no car, no more friends living in buffalo anymore, no life! I just go to work and come home and sleep, and when I’m up for it go to the gym. That’s about it. I have ( Read more... )

 "Homeless"

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything's a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I'm so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don't love me anymore
You don't want me anymore
There's a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
( Read more... )

 Feeling really sad and lonley right now.... damn my hormones!

So Far since I have been home I have looked at Bryant and Stratton at their graphic design and I was not impressed. I feel going for graphic design will restrict me too much. I want to be creative and expressive. I know so much about graphic design (according to their program) and it just wouldn’t be a challenge for me. I don’t want to be ( Read more... )

 Well Im finally home in Buffalo...where I belong

I cant help but miss Brian and LA...Alot :(