Venting Entry.

[brit_myster1]

I Told Him I Still Had Feelings For Him & He Told Me
"When I'm Going Out With You, I Don't Want To Be" &
"When We're Not, I Want You"

But We're On The Same Level...

I Mean, We Both Don't Want Another Long Term Relationship.
I Told Him It Was To Hard For Me.
& He Just Wants To Date Around & Experince New Things.
I Said That Too, But I Don't Think I'm

Comments

[sunk1ssedbl0nde]

everything u said was true... dont let it get to u. ull be fine. just enjoy life... enjoy ohio with darlene. enjoy what u can when u can.

[brit_myster1]

I'm Trtying & Taking It Day By Day. Thanks Lace. It Means A Lot. =]

[do_the_robot__x]

i know exactly what you mean.
it's gonna be hard getting over someone you've been with off and on for so long. maybe you'll never get over him. but if you keep letting yourself get dragged back in, you'll never be happy.
if there's still alot of heartache and tears, obviously you're not 100% okay. let yourself heal before you "move on" or even try to move on.
i don't know. i haven't been in your same situation before, so i don't really know what to tell you that'll actually make sense.
it must be really hard though. =/
just remember you don't always have to put up a front and pretend that things are going great, when they're really not at all...

[brit_myster1]

It's Not Gonna Be, It Really Honestly Is. I Hope I Do Get OVer Him, Because It Seems Like I'm Dragging The Both Of Us Down, Or Maybe He Needs To Tell Me He's Over Me. I Think What's Dragging Me Back In Is The Phone Conversations. We Flirt. Of Course. & Say Some Things That Are Crazy & We Both Know We Should Be Saying. I Don't Know I Think I Need To Stop Letting My Feelings Show, Well Not Actually Let Them Show, I'd Say "Let Them Be Known". I Don't Know Anymore Haley. It's All Just A Big Blurr For Me. I Don't Know What To Do Without Him. But Then Again, Im Wanting To Move On. It's Such A Blurr, I Can't Stand It. So Thats What I Do. Put On A Smile, & When Someone Ask's About It, I Say " I'm Fine. We're Friends! So Thats Good" It May Not Be Good Enough For Me. But I'm Learning That Things Don't Always Go My Way.

[do_the_robot__x]

when you talk to him constantly, you're just reminding yourself of the feelings you have for him. and then when you guys flirt, neither of you are trying to get over one another. it's tough when sometimes you want to move on and other times when you realize you're far from over him

[brit_myster1]

i dont know i just think i want to move on in a way but i cant. and im pretty sure you know what i mean with that one. i guess im just gonna wear my heart on my sleeve & see weater he takes it or laves it. the oppertunity will always be there for him. well atleast for awhile. and your right, there is 3 more years of highschool and im sure im going to be dating other people, but im going to try my hardest to not fall head over heals again. and i guess you are right, who know what could happen. =/

[on_the___verge]

I don't know you but you seem really cool. I read this entry and it was really well written. Better than I could have done. I know exactly how that feels and I'm really sorry that your in that kind of situation. It's true though, sometimes you need to be there for yourself more than anyone else because otherwise, you'll never feel better. Hope it all works out for the best, love. =)

[brit_myster1]

you seem really cool yourself. and thank you, i wasent really sure if it was well written or not. but positive reinforcement always does a good deal. im trying to be there for myself but, it seems like all my friends need me to be there for them too. thanka again, and if youever need someone to talk to you can IM me.
atom1ctanger1ne

mmhmm

[rockstofob]

like i told you last night im ALWAYS here foryou and eerything i said last night i meant it...

Re: mmhmm

[brit_myster1]

i know, and you really did help me out a lot

[muckgowan]

YOUR SO EMO! NO I FREAKING LOVE YA AND YOU KNOW THAT I KNOW, AND YOU KNOW THAT I HAVE LREADY PROBABLY ALREADY HEARD ABOUT THIS WHOLE PROBLEM SINCE I HAVE TO LIVE WITH YOU AND ALL! YOUR GREAT!

[brit_myster1]

okay darlene. it took me a couple time to understand that.