i cant believe how selfish and self-centered i am. my behavior has been really disgusting. im truly ashamed.

seriously i think i really messed things up. i acted completely childish in attempts to get attention. its kinda disgusting when you look back on situations and think how you behaved. im better then all that. its like when we take 1 step forward i cant help but force us 4 steps back. i really need to just relax and take things one day at a time. i ( Read more... )

i put the ball in her court. im completely vulnerable. i felt okay about it last night but idk today. we're leaving work early today im so excited. josie and me are gonna see afro punk at 4:30. its a documentary and supposedly valaria is in it.

this weekend was good. friday i dont remember what i did. oh! i didnt do anything haha. i tried baking valaria a cookie but i overcooked it so sat morning i tried again and made a perfect one. then i decided to go walk around manhattan for a bit and met up with valaria in soho at 4. we walked around a little and went to her place and i helped her ( Read more... )

yesterday i bought my hilary duff ticket. i got an awesome seat i cant wait!!

I LOVE THE RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS.

pride was a bit disappointing. all the lesbians were either too old or too young for me! i suppose it didnt really matter though because in the end i was with the only woman i want to be with. hah. the parade was no joke 6 hours long. valaria and i drank all the rum after about 2 it was so supa sad! haha after awhile we went to the rite aid and she ( Read more... )

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im so happy! i was in the elevator with an asian man and he asked me if im half chinese and i said yes i am! and i asked how he could tell and hes like you look chinese and said hes chinese and it made me really happy. people usually dont guess that. plus 5 for him.

i was listening to afi on the subway today and i sorta entered a kind of trance. it was insane. i blinked about 1 time in 10 mins i kid you not. i was just like lost in the music. that is seriousy an insane feeling.