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Kerouac170 (3:44:04 AM): brit
Auto response from sheshutyoureyes (3:44:04 AM): sleep.
Kerouac170 (3:44:09 AM): I need to talk to you NOW
Kerouac170 (3:51:34 AM): Im not sure if I can call internationally from one of their pay phones but I will try in ten minutes
Kerouac170 (10:49:51 AM): hey
Auto response from sheshutyoureyes (10:49:51 AM): sleep.
Kerouac170 signed on at 10:51:16 AM.
Kerouac170 (10:57:55 AM): what the fuck brit
sheshutyoureyes (11:07:59 AM): youll be able to talk your way out of it just like everything..youll tell her im a stalker..or i just couldnt get the hint that you just wanted to be friends..youre good at making people believe what you want them to
Kerouac170 (11:08:14 AM): why are you doing this?
Kerouac170 (11:08:22 AM): I considered you a friend
sheshutyoureyes (11:08:49 AM): she deserves to know youre a cheater
Kerouac170 (11:09:02 AM): no, Im not brit
Kerouac170 (11:09:06 AM): what is your new phone number
sheshutyoureyes (11:09:23 AM): why so you can yell at me? or give it to big mean heidi..ill keep it to myself
Kerouac170 (11:09:40 AM): I will not give it to anyone, and have I ever yelled at your antics?
Kerouac170 (11:09:53 AM): I just don't understand what is going on exactly and would like to talk
sheshutyoureyes (11:10:18 AM): i told myself a long tiem ago that i was going to tell her..i just had to work up the nerve
Kerouac170 (11:10:21 AM): I can dig it up from when you gave it to me previously, but it will take awhile
Kerouac170 (11:11:20 AM): what is the point of this charade?
Kerouac170 (11:11:26 AM): can I please have the number?
sheshutyoureyes (11:11:47 AM): like i said..she deserves to know
Kerouac170 (11:11:52 AM): number?
sheshutyoureyes (11:12:02 AM): no..were talking here
Kerouac170 (11:12:13 AM): why are you scared to confront me?
sheshutyoureyes (11:12:49 AM): im not..but youll say a lot of things on the phone that i cant prove
Kerouac170 (11:12:50 AM): your little prank will do much more damage than you realize
Kerouac170 (11:13:01 AM): what??
sheshutyoureyes (11:13:03 AM): it isnt a prank if its the truth
Kerouac170 (11:13:05 AM): you are crazy
Kerouac170 (11:13:30 AM): Is this because of halie??
Kerouac170 (11:13:39 AM): prove WHAT to WHO????
Kerouac170 (11:13:45 AM): dont be a psycho
sheshutyoureyes (11:14:28 AM): im not being a psycho..thats your answer to everything..oh..shes just psycho..you just dont like being seen as what you really are..and thats a cheater
Kerouac170 (11:15:08 AM): no, I never cheated and you know it
Kerouac170 (11:15:12 AM): you draw you OWN conclusions
sheshutyoureyes (11:15:30 AM): you are her boyfriend..so dont act like you arent
sheshutyoureyes (11:15:46 AM): and dont act like you never fucked me either
Kerouac170 (11:16:01 AM): you are a drama queen and have to try to make everyone else miserable by lies!
Kerouac170 (11:16:20 AM): I just dont understand why
Kerouac170 (11:16:50 AM): brb
sheshutyoureyes (11:17:52 AM): youre hilarious..you know youll be able to talk your way out of this..you know diva will believe EVERY word you say..
Kerouac170 (11:17:52 AM): hold on one sec
Kerouac170 (11:21:07 AM): I know I picked on you and pissed you off a lot, but why this bullshit?
sheshutyoureyes (11:21:24 AM): how did you pick on me?
Kerouac170 (11:21:36 AM): because I never "fell for you"?
Kerouac170 (11:21:53 AM): Im sorry, I just never liked you like that
sheshutyoureyes (11:22:17 AM): yeah..im just ok to fuck..
Kerouac170 (11:22:19 AM): I know you are just typing all this shit so you can cut and paste and try to act so sincere
Kerouac17O (11:26:27 AM): so are you going to tell me?
Kerouac17O (11:26:37 AM): what did I ever do seriously to piss you off so much?
Kerouac17O (11:26:47 AM): it doesnt have to be like this
sheshutyoureyes (11:27:45 AM): sure it does..ive told the truth and youll make diva believe im a liar
Kerouac17O (11:28:10 AM): why are you doing this brit....I really did consider you a friend
Kerouac17O (11:28:17 AM): friends dont do this crap
sheshutyoureyes (11:28:35 AM): boyfriends who love their girlfriens dont cheat on them
Kerouac17O (11:28:46 AM): quit the bullshit, seriously....quit trying to extract information from me so you can show it to everyone
Kerouac17O (11:29:02 AM): we are talking to each other, and that is all
sheshutyoureyes (11:29:05 AM): i know you arent going to say anything that would help me out
Kerouac17O (11:29:13 AM): help you out??
sheshutyoureyes (11:29:20 AM): you dont want diva to know the truth
Kerouac17O (11:30:07 AM): she doesnt need to know I slept with you and Mahalie
sheshutyoureyes (11:30:27 AM): sure she does
sheshutyoureyes (11:31:05 AM): this may be a bad time for me telling her..but really..theres never a good time to tell someone their boyfriend has cheated on them
Kerouac17O (11:31:13 AM): why do you even care?
Kerouac17O (11:31:25 AM): you do not want to be on my bad side brit
Kerouac17O (11:31:29 AM): TRUST ME
sheshutyoureyes (11:31:35 AM): i think its too late
Kerouac17O (11:31:45 AM): I am trying to keep this peaceful
Kerouac17O (11:32:47 AM): you are being crazy
sheshutyoureyes (11:33:05 AM): of course..because im being honest
Kerouac17O (11:33:45 AM): it is none of your business, you shouldnt mess with people that can ruin your life
sheshutyoureyes (11:34:03 AM): its not going to ruin mine
Kerouac17O (11:34:14 AM): but I can
sheshutyoureyes (11:34:16 AM): right
sheshutyoureyes (11:34:57 AM): exactly how do you have so much power?
Kerouac17O (11:35:40 AM): there are so many things that could be done, don't make an enemy out of me
Kerouac17O (11:35:53 AM): we can call this quits right here
sheshutyoureyes (11:35:58 AM): like i said its too late
Kerouac17O (11:36:02 AM): but if you continue
Kerouac17O (11:36:08 AM): remember the pictures I have?
sheshutyoureyes (11:36:23 AM): what pictures?
Kerouac17O (11:36:47 AM): you really don't remember?
sheshutyoureyes (11:37:01 AM): youre hilarious
Kerouac17O (11:37:10 AM): My new Nikon that I got...remember me showing it off?
sheshutyoureyes (11:37:23 AM): no
Kerouac17O (11:37:49 AM): Shelbyville
sheshutyoureyes (11:38:01 AM): so?
Kerouac17O (11:39:18 AM): if you had a problem with me, you should have come to me
sheshutyoureyes (11:40:51 AM): coming to you wouldnt have helped..it would have turned out just like this has
Kerouac17O (11:41:38 AM): how is that?
sheshutyoureyes (11:42:11 AM): you calling me crazy and denying things
Kerouac17O signed off at 11:42:38 AM.
Funny how he keeps changing screennames.
Brittles2082 (11:43:16 AM): not on the phone I wouldnt
Brittles2082 (11:43:34 AM): now can we please talk about this like adults?
sheshutyoureyes (11:43:43 AM): i have been talking about it like an adult
Brittles2082 (11:43:54 AM): no, you have been childish and ignorant
sheshutyoureyes (11:44:13 AM): ignorant..yes because im being honest
Brittles2082 (11:44:33 AM): ignorant because you dont know the damage I WILL do
sheshutyoureyes (11:44:49 AM): im not afraid of you
Brittles2082 (11:44:52 AM): do you have a car yet?
Brittles2082 (11:44:53 AM): no?
sheshutyoureyes (11:45:00 AM): nope
Brittles2082 (11:45:20 AM): I made a mistake brit, and now you are threatening my livelihood with it
Brittles2082 (11:45:27 AM): and that would make you retaliate also
Brittles2082 (11:45:57 AM): we were going through troubles then and since we have become much closer
Brittles2082 (11:46:04 AM): eventually I will tell her, but on MY terms
sheshutyoureyes (11:46:14 AM): you will not tell her
Brittles2082 (11:46:16 AM): don't fuck me over like this
Brittles2082 (11:46:26 AM): yes, I would never be able to marry someone with secrets
Brittles2082 (11:47:10 AM): you chose a very bad time to do all of this
sheshutyoureyes (11:47:19 AM): like i said..any time would have been bad
Brittles2082 (11:47:27 AM): no, not after I told her
sheshutyoureyes (11:47:47 AM): so you guys are much closer now? is that why the last time i stopped by your house you wanted me to stay?
Brittles2082 (11:47:58 AM): not for sex brit
Brittles2082 (11:48:09 AM): the last time you spent the night, what did we do?
Brittles2082 (11:48:11 AM): not have sex
Brittles2082 (11:48:30 AM): you were presumptuous with that request
sheshutyoureyes (11:48:52 AM): there were quite a few times when we didnt have sex
Brittles2082 (11:49:00 AM): exactly
Brittles2082 (11:49:02 AM): know why?
Brittles2082 (11:49:21 AM): I was confused and even though I liked you, I felt bad
Brittles2082 (11:50:13 AM): and that is no bullshit
sheshutyoureyes (11:52:42 AM): i dunno what youre waiting for me to say
Brittles2082 (11:53:14 AM): I am waiting for you to help me work things out
sheshutyoureyes (11:53:47 AM): how am i supposed to do that? tell her i lied? i made all of this up..i made up all the aim conversations..i made EVERYTHING up
sheshutyoureyes (11:54:02 AM): would that make things better? probably not
Brittles2082 (11:54:16 AM): aim conversations?
Brittles2082 (11:54:28 AM): what did you send and to whom?
sheshutyoureyes (11:54:39 AM): didnt send them to anyone
sheshutyoureyes (11:54:56 AM): there were old converstions that i made private in my journal
Brittles2082 (11:55:07 AM): then please brit, I beg you as a friend
Brittles2082 (11:55:12 AM): this is much bigger than you realize
sheshutyoureyes (11:55:21 AM): oh no..i know what im doing
Brittles2082 (11:55:32 AM): in the past month or so, I have come to several realizations
Brittles2082 (11:55:44 AM): you are acting out of spite and anger
Brittles2082 (11:55:50 AM): and I can understand why
sheshutyoureyes (11:55:58 AM): then why?
Brittles2082 (11:56:48 AM): because I led you on and I really never meant to hurt your feelings, but I did
Brittles2082 (11:57:00 AM): and I tried to remain friends because of that, and for other reasons
Brittles2082 (11:57:17 AM): because it wasnt just a one night stand sort of thing
Brittles2082 (11:58:34 AM): and mahalie was though
Brittles2082 (11:58:37 AM): a very big mistake
sheshutyoureyes (12:01:44 PM): one of the things that i thought was funniest..was the last time i saw you..and you were explaining when you were leaving..you mentioned new york..and the "someone" you were supposed to help adjust..you could have come out and said it was diva..but you didnt
Brittles2082 (12:02:12 PM): think about it brit
Brittles2082 (12:02:39 PM): I never wanted to bring her up in front of you because I knew how pissed off it made you
sheshutyoureyes (12:03:03 PM): it didnt piss me off..it made me feel like crap to know i was with someones boyfriend
sheshutyoureyes (12:03:26 PM): especially someone who seems so sweet and naive
Brittles2082 (12:03:26 PM): it also didnt stop you before though
Brittles2082 (12:03:58 PM): like I said, I was very unsure about our relationship at several points, but we have been through alot since then
sheshutyoureyes (12:04:39 PM): being unsure shouldnt lead to cheating..especially if you love someone
Brittles2082 (12:04:58 PM): sometimes thats a good way to tell, I found out
sheshutyoureyes (12:05:18 PM): and im sure thats what youll tell her
sheshutyoureyes (12:05:34 PM): and she will fall for it
Brittles2082 (12:06:22 PM): can you please leave it alone?
sheshutyoureyes (12:06:32 PM): probably not
Brittles2082 (12:06:38 PM): why?
sheshutyoureyes (12:07:10 PM): because i dont want to
Brittles2082 (12:07:42 PM): are you that upset about it?
sheshutyoureyes (12:09:33 PM): im not upset about it anymore..i was upset in february..when i knew you were lying when you said she was a great friend
sheshutyoureyes (12:09:41 PM): and not a great girlfriend
Brittles2082 (12:09:47 PM): you are still upset and very bitter
Brittles2082 (12:10:11 PM): otherwise this would not be such an issue with you
sheshutyoureyes (12:10:40 PM): im not upset..and you werent the person to make me bitter..it happened long before you
Brittles2082 (12:11:15 PM): if you had peace about it then you would sypathize and not try to keep stirring trouble
sheshutyoureyes (12:11:53 PM): sympathy for someone who cheated on their girlfriend? nah
Brittles2082 (12:12:01 PM): and you def would not have been tracking her lj
Brittles2082 (12:12:25 PM): dont act like you have never made a mistake
sheshutyoureyes (12:12:33 PM): ive never cheated on someone
Brittles2082 (12:12:46 PM): there are different mistakes
Brittles2082 (12:12:49 PM): you have made others
Brittles2082 (12:12:59 PM): and would you want your life ruined because of one of them
Brittles2082 (12:13:00 PM): ?
sheshutyoureyes (12:13:15 PM): i havent made any mistakes big enough to ruin my life
Brittles2082 (12:13:51 PM): you do, everyone does....not wearing your seltbelt is just one of the many
sheshutyoureyes (12:14:50 PM): whatever
Brittles2082 (12:15:19 PM): have I ever done anything to intentionally hurt you?
sheshutyoureyes (12:15:41 PM): making me believe that you didnt have a girlfriend..that was quite intentional
Brittles2082 (12:16:00 PM): I was under the impression that we were not going to work out
Brittles2082 (12:16:24 PM): so I started exploring other options
Brittles2082 (12:17:10 PM): I don't like long distance relationships and used to refuse to be in them
Brittles2082 (12:20:05 PM): and thought that you and I might really work out
Brittles2082 (12:20:30 PM): when we met for drinks that night, I really liked you
sheshutyoureyes (12:20:30 PM): i dont believe that for a second
Brittles2082 (12:20:54 PM): why else would I have put up with some of your antics
sheshutyoureyes (12:21:05 PM): i really dont know
Brittles2082 (12:22:01 PM): because you USED to be a really sweet and cool girl...I really never thought you would do anything like this to me before
Brittles2082 (12:22:19 PM): and I thought since we liked similiar music and you were really cute that who knew where it would lead
sheshutyoureyes (12:23:02 PM): according to heidi youd never swoon at a lane bryant catalog so theres no way youd ever find me attractive
Brittles2082 (12:23:16 PM): lane bryant?
sheshutyoureyes (12:23:22 PM): fat womens clothes
sheshutyoureyes (12:23:42 PM): i found it amusing
Brittles2082 (12:23:46 PM): brit, you are not fat and obviously I was very attracted to you
Brittles2082 (12:24:09 PM): I love girls with tatoos, you have a very nice figure and a pretty face
Brittles2082 (12:24:34 PM): and you seemed so considerate and I really wanted to get you to open up
sheshutyoureyes (12:25:03 PM): too bad
Brittles2082 (12:25:21 PM): too bad?
sheshutyoureyes (12:25:57 PM): im glad i didnt open up..i would have been hurt a lot worse than i was
Brittles2082 (12:26:19 PM): I have no comment on that
Brittles2082 (12:26:25 PM): but maybe not
sheshutyoureyes (12:27:35 PM): its sad that it took my cousin blurting out something about diva for her to even come up..you had the perfect chance to be honest about her..but instead you lied about her..saying that she was a really great person and friend
sheshutyoureyes (12:28:14 PM): you could have just said yes..shes my girlfriend..and i love her a lot..and you could have said you were having secodn thoguhts about her..i would have taken that
Brittles2082 (12:28:15 PM): I wasnt sure what was going to happen at that point, or how I felt
Brittles2082 (12:28:31 PM): and I certainly didnt want to tell you because of this
Brittles2082 (12:28:58 PM): no brit, I was worried you would get jealous and try something
sheshutyoureyes (12:34:43 PM): are we done talking?
Brittles2082 (12:34:57 PM): no
Brittles2082 (12:35:12 PM): can you please help me out here?
sheshutyoureyes (12:35:17 PM): how?
Brittles2082 (12:35:26 PM): but just leaving it alone
Brittles2082 (12:35:40 PM): and let me deal with it
Brittles2082 (12:35:50 PM): I promise to tell her before (and if now) we get married
Brittles2082 (12:35:54 PM): but not right now
sheshutyoureyes (12:36:09 PM): your promises dont really mean much to me
Brittles2082 (12:36:22 PM): well it doesnt need to be a promise
sheshutyoureyes (12:36:31 PM): if shes asks me any questions..ill answer them
Brittles2082 (12:36:33 PM): just let me deal with my own problems please
Brittles2082 (12:36:48 PM): or you could just ignore
sheshutyoureyes (12:36:51 PM): nah
sheshutyoureyes (12:36:59 PM): im not one to ignore things
Brittles2082 (12:37:10 PM): something has gotten into you
Brittles2082 (12:37:15 PM): this isnt the brit I knew
Brittles2082 (12:38:31 PM): i could easily call your parents and tell them stuff, but I wouldnt do that....why?? because it isnt my business and it is pretty immature
sheshutyoureyes (12:38:41 PM): tell them what?
Brittles2082 (12:39:24 PM): Im sure they dont want their daughter taking their car out to have sex, but even if they dont care...I still wouldnt tell if it was something that would really piss them off
sheshutyoureyes (12:40:15 PM): im sure my mom knows..and if my dad doesnt then hes living in a dream world
Brittles2082 (12:40:40 PM): that's not my point though
Brittles2082 (12:42:20 PM): I would leave the probems to you to deal with
Brittles2082 (12:42:34 PM): and I wouldnt try to get you in trouble
sheshutyoureyes (12:45:23 PM): im done talking
Brittles2082 (12:45:47 PM): okay, but think about it brit
Brittles2082 (12:45:50 PM): this just isnt like you
sheshutyoureyes (12:46:12 PM): it isnt like me to stand up for anything..i know
Brittles2082 (12:46:22 PM): no, this isnt just standing up
Brittles2082 (12:46:34 PM): standing up and being strong was you never wanting to come see me
Brittles2082 (12:46:43 PM): this is malicious
sheshutyoureyes (12:51:05 PM): done?
Brittles2082 (12:51:33 PM): yes
sheshutyoureyes (12:51:52 PM): alright..goodbye