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i've been back to writers block lately. ugh. i was hoping arizona would help, but alas it did not. i wrote the beginning to yet another story that will, like always, never develope into anything because of my small attention span for pieces of writing. what a crapass writer i make, haha. so anyways....
nothing special.
some writing.
unfortunatly, it's all old
and not really that good.
also, i'm not quite sure what, if any, of this i've posted before, but umm, oh well?... (woah... way too many commas in there.)
talk to me
whisper those words i hold so dear
let me hear how much you care
i already know
but reassurance is always welcome
why not?
i know it's true
i think it's true
i just like to make sure
make sure i'm not stepping into something that isn't there
with seemingly open arms you stand
but perhaps that is tainted perception
just a deception
my mind is playing on me
so cruel
but i'd like to think it's real
i really hope it's real
please tell me it's real
just w h i s p e r those words
my ears are ready and waiting
to receive the sweetest sound they could ever dream up
if only life were less complex
and silence weren't so deadly
if harshness were a kinder thing
and glares could be less edgy
if only smiles were always real
and friendships couldn’t tatter
if feelings could always be revealed
and i could say what matters
why do you miss things you never truly had?
so close to your grasp
yet so far a w a y
were they ever even there
in the first place?
and it hurts so much
and regret hurts all the more
it was so close to your fingertips
yet always just out of reach
feeling the breath of warmth
but never feeling the full heat
Painful.
Raw.
Emotionless?
Opposite.
Hurt.
Sad.
Feelings bare?
Over-exposed.
Heartrending.
Agonizing.
Heartbreaking?
Still breaking hearts.
Ashamed.
Unwilling.
Done with?
Just a wish.
~smiles truly are contagious
a simple smile can make your day
so smile, and make someone else's~
should a simple smile make you so happy?
should one simple hello make your day?
should one mere person acknowledging your existence mean so much?
is any of that healthy?
is any of that reasonable?
is any of that sane?
maybe not.
but can you really help how you feel?
that one i can answer;
no. not at all.