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Thought I knew my mind like the back of my hand,
The gold and the rainbow, but nothing panned out as I planned.
And they say only milk and honey's gonna make your soul satisfied!
Well I better learn how to swim
Cause the crossing is chilly and wide.
Twisted guardrail on the highway, broken glass on the cement
A ghost of someone's tragedy
How recklessly my time has been spent.
And they say that it's never too late, but you don't get any younger!
Well I better learn how to starve the emptiness
And feed the hunger
Up on the watershed, standing at the fork in the road
You can stand there and agonize
Till your agony's your heaviest load.
You'll never fly as the crow flies, get used to a country mile.
When you're learning to face the path at your pace
Every choice is worth your while.
Well there's always retrospect to light a clearer path
Every five years or so I look back on my life
And I have a good laugh.
You start at the top, go full circle round
Catch a breeze, take a spill
But ending up where i started again makes me wanna stand still.
Stepping on a crack, breaking up and looking back
Every tree limb overhead just seems to sit and wait.
Until every step you take becomes a twist of fate.
I spend a lot of time trying to decide if my actions are based on the desire to makes things work to the point that they eventually do, or if I'm unable to accept the facts when something doesn't work. I've realized that I'm much more of a person who will fight to make things work in any area of my life, but especially with people. Is a result that I don't know when things just aren't meant to be because I am blinded by own determination? Hmm...
I guess I'm alright for now because I'm not trying too hard to make anything work. I don't think I've reached the point of apathy however, everything just seems to be panning out okay for now.
But I don't think my Philosophy exam is one of those things, so I take it back. I'm gonna go study for another lifetime.