February 4th, 2010: auburn,al ( Read more... )

i think i want to start writing in this again. like actually update it. but im wondering if i should start a whole new journal or keep this one?

And I had to run some errands today.
It was the first time I had driven into Westfield since you left.
And oh how my heart ached.
I drove past the bridge, you know, the one where we climbed the tower.
I drove past the bench, where we sat after we had ritas.
I drove past the park, where our most wonderful moments were made.
The moments that are now gone. ( Read more... )

and shes not worried about getting black mascara on your white shirt anymore, cuz now you're gone ( Read more... )

time after time you bring her down again.
night after night she cries herself to sleep again.

i just wanna know how to fix it.
How do i become your world again.
Because you are still my world.

and none of this makes sense to me
I wish i understood.
How does something change without any reason.
Please just explain it to me.

and i know that you care, i know ( Read more... )

and she sits in class, trying soo hard to pay attention to the lecture.
I'ts like someone turned the volume down
all she hears is her mind thinking about him.
Thinking about how she wasn't good enough for him.

HER HEART WAS IN ALABAMA.
HER MIND WAS IN ALABAMA.
Her self-esteem is now lower than ever.
She thought she meant something to him.
She was wrong.
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today is one year with christopher ( Read more... )

ughhh. im soooo0o0o0o0o0o b0redddd =(

i want it to be saturday alreadyyy!!!!

i miss chris <3

itll be a year next week, so im working on his present. heh.

so innm really durbnk right now and i dont evern have any frineds. ive breen quite deproseed lately, cuz noone ver calls me to hangout. not everm my bbest friend annmarie. ESSPECIALLLYA my "besy friend annmarie" im such a fuckin loser. =( i have beeen literally cryin becuazse of it for the past two days. seriously, noone ever calls me to hangt out ( Read more... )

i found my first fourleaf clover