just get out.

[brn_eyes_dreams]

so jesse and i get into this verbally abraisive conversation about deej and caitlin

Comments

[jga05]

Guys don't like walls. When your friends with someone, they are like a gift. You go crazy trying to figure out what's inside. Sometimes though, if you aren't told before Christmas/Birthday/Hanukah/Kwanzaa you shake the present too hard and it breaks from being so fragile. You have to decide, "do I want to break or should I just let out the secret?"

[brn_eyes_dreams]

sometimes presents aren't great gifts and aren't wrapped well.
mine's the one that isn't wrapped well that no one wants.

[noel_w]

Candice I am sorry that the talk wasnt pleasant. Just know that the only reason jesse does anything, asks about you, wonders how you are, wants to just know what is wrong, isnt because he is nosey, and it isnt just to know, its because he loves you, just like I do. So dont get mad or frustrated with him when he does that, please. I also know what its like not to trust anyone, i know what its like to put up walls so you can protect against the hurt. I just dropped them recently and that was a big mistake, a very big one. I dont personally think that i am gonna do that again for a very long time. So you dont have to trust me candice, and that is fine, but just know that i do understand, at least give me that little one.

"all is made better in the end"

Alex

levels.

[brn_eyes_dreams]

it's not that i don't trust you.
there are levels of trust.
as in.
------------------ top level, so close (fanny, valerie)

------------------ jesse

------------------ most other close friends (you, shannon, roman, people like that)

__________________ my father and laura
------------------ no trust

Re: levels.

[noel_w]

Well i am glad that there is some sort of trust between us, friendship tends to be based on that.... I hope that in time you will learn to trust me more, i do care about you alot, but i know it takes alot of time to earn that sort of trust, just like it takes time to give that sort of trust out.

Re: levels.

[brn_eyes_dreams]

it's not like a trust thing really.
there's just a part of me that i don't let people know about.
only fanny and clifford knew.
but fanny was the one there for me during it.
it's in the past and it causes a lot of my problems now and that's why i don't like explaining myself because i have to go way deep back into that of my past.

[midnitestalker]

i know what u are talking about i trust NOONE... and to let clifford have my trust is realy hard...i say i fell bad and he wants to know every single detail...well sometime that is all i can say i have no details...and my walls have NEVER came down for anyone (ok may be cliff sometimes)...

but people are hard to trust and i will never realy trust another person in my life...that is just how we are....

[brn_eyes_dreams]

he knew a lot of stuff.
one thing in particular that i know you know and he was the first person i EVER told that to.
and that piece of information in my life basically is the highest guarded part of my past.
you basically know everything about me if you know that and i have directly talked and told you what happened.
i don't want other guys to know about that. i don't feel like telling anyone else because it's the past.

i'm sorry that he's like that. he's always that way.
but that's because he loves and you and wants to be able to help if somethings bothering you.
vis versa, you shouldn't have to feel obligated to say everything on you mind.

[crookwang]

you shouldn't have to feel obligated to say everything on you mind.

yup thats very true

[crookwang]

you never really ever gave your trust to anyone christine and the only who you can blame all yourdown falls is on your self for letting people walk all over you. and beside what ever happed in your life that made you not trust anyone.