Hey Dorris Young found my Journal and sent me a message. YAY ( Read more... )

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Well I am alive and well still here. Things are totally speeding up in my life at the moment and I am loosing my mind but to tell the truth I love every minute of it. Partying all weekend, going to clubs and dancing the night away, I now see Chicago every week. Needless to say I am poor as ####. I literaly had 100 to last me till I got a job. Not ( Read more... )

No joke. I really was blind on Saturday. I woke up Friday in such pain I couldn't move and then went to the doc ($100) which they promptly told me to go immediatly to the ER. I went all the way down to 14st and 2nd ave. where I waited longer untill another doctor examined my eyes and told me I had a virus, and she perscribed 3 medications ($70). ( Read more... )

No joke. I really was blind on Saturday. I woke up Friday in such pain I couldn't move and then went to the doc ($100) which they promptly told me to go immediatly to the ER. I went all the way down to 14st and 2nd ave. where I waited longer untill another doctor examined my eyes and told me I had a virus, and she perscribed 3 medications ($70). ( Read more... )

Good morning. It's one in the morning here in the big apple. Hummm. Such a strange sleep patter I have developed. I don't like being in my room for too long, it's very cramped and crowded and doesn't allow me to breath. It sufficates me mentally and socially. I much prefer sitting outside feeling the cool midnight breeze comming across the park ( Read more... )

Bounce. Listened to it today. Didn't tink about it till now. Ya time to BOUNCE myself. Life you know. I feel much better today, I seem to have gotten all that dumb AMDA New York gay boi bullshit is out of my system. I am pretty sick though. I went crazy and can you believe it...I got sick. I am taking wellness pills and drinking several gallons, ( Read more... )

Adam won't talk to me. He says he wants nothing to do with me, at least in his jounral. He has thrown away the picture I gave him and he wrote recently that he had his first successful experience as a bottom. Something that I could never do for him. He won't give me closure and it is absolutely killing me. He says I am bad for him. I still love him ( Read more... )

... you know it is the strangest thing. The place with the most people is also the loneliest place in the entire world. Crazy, no?

So I am an official New Yorker now. I live in the city. Holla for a $ yall. Totally the most amazing thing ever. And I feel at home, the entire time. I have never once felt out of place or that I didn't belong of even like a tourist for that matter. It feels as if I have lived here my entire life. Go figure that one. New York is the best, and the ( Read more... )