So... I got my hair cut really short, well kind of. I am so ugly. I hate the way I look. And, no, I am not looking for "pitty". I am just really uncomfortable with the way that I look. Most people are. Does that make me normal? Well, I guess that is all that I have to say besides the fact that my brother was pissing me off and I feel ugly and ( Read more... )

Christmas is so boring... I wish that I could be with friends or something. Hmm.. I am bored and there is nothing to type about so... Talk to everyone later...

Weeee... I can't wait until study hall!!!! Amber is really the only person who knows why too because she is in my study hall...!!!! YAY!!!! I guess for the past few days things have been going pretty good for me. I have NOT cut myself, I have NOT been drinking, I have NOT talked to my dad, my sister IS coming up here therefor I am going to help HER ( Read more... )

I'm in a really fucked up mood. I was really happy, then I guess something that I thaught of changed my mood. So, I stopped cutting myself...HOORAY FOR ME!!! So for all of you fuckbags who hate me for it, FUCK YOU!! But, yeah...I in such a fucked up mood. Yeah...I guess that I'm gonna stop typing now and read all of your journals...

To all of you who are saying cutting is stupid, shut up because you don't fucking know. Steph, you don't know me...I don't really want you to know me. I just want to do what I do without you saying all this shit like, Cutting is so stupid. Or, you know there is always someone who has it worse than you. I ALREADY FUCKING KNOW THAT. But that doesn't ( Read more... )

I'm at school. I would rather be at my house than here. My mom is being so weird. I don't really know why she is acting this way. She has just been angry one minute, then understanding the next. I want a soda!!! I found my jacket, so NOW i'm not grounded!!! But all of this still sucks. people keep asking what I want for christmas, I don't need ( Read more... )

Today is going really bad. I told my mom that I cut myself, last night. She started yelling at me. I was gonna show her, but she threatened to send me to boot camp. I don't remember how many cuts I have but I will count in a little bit. There are no good things that have really happened lately. I have just been so confused, angry, happy, sad, just ( Read more... )

So, I forgive Sean. I do believe him, but I don't get why he would do this to himself. I don't even really know what I am talking about right now. I am out of it...oh well...

So...today is going kind of shitty. With Lynn, and with Sean, and everything going on in my head. WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO WITH MYSELF? I feel like I don't belong right now, that I'm causing more and more drama than there already is. Maybe I should just drown myslef in a huge lake, somewhere where nobody can find my body. That's where I would commit ( Read more... )

Today sucks. I was so happy yesterday, about seeing my cousin you know, and I called Lynda and found out Seans in jail. WTF? And I guess he has been lying about a lot of stuff. When I think about it, I wonder if he ever really was concerned about me. I know he probably did somewhat, but it seems like every time I'm upset, which happens to be a lot ( Read more... )