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I feel really alone which is ridiculous because I'm surrounded by people all the time. Well, not so much this weekend since a lot of people have left for the long weekend but generally, yes, there are a lot of people here.
I've barely seen my roommate because she has to work so much and then goes out with her work friends all the time. I guess I'm upset about it because we're roommates and she's my best friend here and she's spent more time with people from work in one day than she's spent with me. Also she lost her keys so I have to leave the door unlocked for her so when she gets back here at whatever time she can get in.
I haven't seen my other friends because, besides roomie, they all graduated and are in Master's programs or just living and working here all the time.
Boy from work called earlier and wants to come up on the 28th. I don't want to tell him it's ok just because I'm lonely but I think that might be what happens. I don't have anyone to talk to here. I feel like I should be too old to be bothered by all this shit but it's still upsetting me.
I don't know what I need. I don't want to go home because I think I'll feel the same way here but I don't see myself being able to get through a year being ignored by the people who are supposed to be my friends. I probably just need to get out more and meet people but I'm just not good at it and frankly feel really uncomfortable trying to force myself to talk to people. I need it to come naturally but it won't. I don't know how other people do it.
I've barely seen my roommate because she has to work so much and then goes out with her work friends all the time. I guess I'm upset about it because we're roommates and she's my best friend here and she's spent more time with people from work in one day than she's spent with me. Also she lost her keys so I have to leave the door unlocked for her so when she gets back here at whatever time she can get in.
I haven't seen my other friends because, besides roomie, they all graduated and are in Master's programs or just living and working here all the time.
Boy from work called earlier and wants to come up on the 28th. I don't want to tell him it's ok just because I'm lonely but I think that might be what happens. I don't have anyone to talk to here. I feel like I should be too old to be bothered by all this shit but it's still upsetting me.
I don't know what I need. I don't want to go home because I think I'll feel the same way here but I don't see myself being able to get through a year being ignored by the people who are supposed to be my friends. I probably just need to get out more and meet people but I'm just not good at it and frankly feel really uncomfortable trying to force myself to talk to people. I need it to come naturally but it won't. I don't know how other people do it.