wow.. look what i have become.. a wreck... what an accomplishment huh? well i dont know if i'll be online much... i'll probably be sitting in my room crying... writing poetry.. and all that.. just to keep from hating everything else around me... i finally was happy.. and then it all got shot down.. he doenst want me anymore.. he wants her.. and she ( Read more... )

la de da... im just sitting here.. thinking about shit.. i mean i dont want to be jealous...but i just.. dont want to lose him.. i dont want to get hurt.. but i know that if he goes and meets her.. he's probably going to ditch me and go with her.. and i just dont like the thought of that... i just.. i dont want to get hurt again.. thats all i ever ( Read more... )

it really fucking pisses me off how they sit there and say that i can go with them... then they say that i cant because there's "too many people"...yeah.. ok... they say one thing.. and stab me in my back right in front of me.... what friends they are

i honestly dont get it... all i am is a person who makes everyone's lives a living hell... i do nothing right... i sit and soak in my own missery... no matter what i do i get into an argument.. my attitude isnt all that good anymore.. my emotions are taking over my mind... i can sit there and have tears brought to my eyes for no reason... my heart ( Read more... )

another confused time... he was in a good mood earlier and then snapped... i say something and its like i did somthing wrong and he just gives me this tone... and i hate it....i cant do anything right it seems....its all wrong... everything that comes out of my mouth is wrong.. or i cant even say what i want to... i was talking to a friend.. and it ( Read more... )

why is it so hard for things to just be said.. i need to tell him everything.. and i cant.... i cant come to tell him anything.. all that i need to say i cant... my heart is going to explode if i keep this up. it is so difficult....

well its a new year... hopefully i wont screw this one up as bad as i did last year. all i want to do is be happy, but as of now, people are mad at me and wont even talk to me. and if they do they only have harsh words to say. makes me feel oh so great. like today, i havent had the best day in the world, i dont mean to take it out on people, it ( Read more... )

well its christmas, and things just dont seem right... there isnt snow on the ground, and there really isnt much happiness. especially for me. the one person that means the most to me, really doesnt seem close anymore. it jut kills me thinking back to last year, and how everyone was together and happy... now, there are a few who actually even talk ( Read more... )

christmas is what, 3 days away.. well christmas eve is in 2... but yah.. i still have yet to get josh's gf something...she's alright.. i mean i have gotten to know her, so she's been aproved of.. wow that sounds weird saying.. but yah.. she thinks tha i am cool shit and is getting me something for christmas... so i have to get her something too...i ( Read more... )

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