wow so things have gotten better than worse than better and so on. so ive decided to sit here all day and drink my life away then ill go to the festival tonite. ive just come to the conclusion alcohol's not that good. but that absolut is calling my name. im gay ( Read more... )

okay this entry is decated to me bitching about people, this is not meant to hurt anyone. this is my journal ill say what i want. if no one wants to read it i dont mind ( Read more... )

so a few days ago i was gonna write this big long entry about how upset and mad i was but i couldnt find the right things to say so i didnt, and im glad i didnt. honestly, im not that upset i realize im better off and i think i always knew this was how it would be. it hurts way less the second time ( Read more... )

i wish i could write how i feel in here, but since certain people read it i cant. which is kind of lame but i dont want to upset anyone more than i already have, or make things worse. to be honest i dont even know how i feel right now. i just wish everyone would go away, and i think and hope this weekend will be good for me.

wahhh ( Read more... )

i just realized there's an NSYNC song for every love/relationship problem you are having, and im playing "thats when i stop loving you" at my wedding.

i start school tomorrow. someone please kill me.

( A day at the park )

tuesday- went to melissa ( Read more... )

i dont even fucking know anymore. i feel like ive just had my insides completely ripped out of me. or ive been hit by a semi. or some other painful thing which would cause you to die. to be honest i kinda wish that would have happened. i know everyone probably thinks this is just about jonas screwing me over but its really not. ill admit that is a ( Read more... )

i now know what its like to hit rock bottom.