So two more day's untill Ryan come home. I'm not sure if I'm looking forward to it or not. I havn't heard from him since Sunday, I missed him then, and I missed him Monday, but now I'm just feeling numb about seeing him. Yes I love him...But you know me and my mind....enough said.

Jes

On my own for a week. First time since we got together that we've been apart for more then a couple days. I think I can handle it. But he's gone and he's got himself in the dog house already. He didn't call me to let me know he made it down in one peice. But I'll servive. This gives me a chance to work on my sleep pattern, maybe clean my room ( Read more... )

So I went to the One Acts lastnight. It was great to see the HCC crew, but there were somthings that just struck me wrong. And who is the sorce of this? Mr. Wilcox. I can't explane it. I Love Ryan with all my heart and soul. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I had Josh and Kristin around the whole night to keep me company and not ( Read more... )

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!

thats all!

Jes

I hate job hunting. I really do. All I want these days is to get a good job, make enough money so I can get a place of my own, and live my life. Or get a place with Ryan and be able to be near him when I want to.

but we don't always get what we want.

Jes

Talked with Ryan....Of course it wasn't untill I was curled up next to him freaking out inside my head and started crying. I told him that I was feeling like he was pushing me away, and that it seemed that he really didn't want to spend time with me. We are probably getting together for a nice day of Buffy and Fragle Rock sometime this weekend. ( Read more... )

"Hold On To Me ( Read more... )

Oh what a lucky guy Ryan is...

...I just made him Chocolate covered Strawberries which I know he loves. I had been planing this for a couple weeks now as a Valentines day suprise for him, and since we are celibrating tomorrow night....I just made them for him.

Jes

Four jobs I've had ( Read more... )

Back to spending a lot of time with Ryan. Its been really great. And its mainly been because I spent most of this week with out a car. I've got the new car now. She runs beautifully. Life for the most part is good. Trying to find a job around here and not finding anything. Thinking of broadening my search to NC, And if Nikki would let me ( Read more... )