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brokenangel9686

What A Surprise!

Apr 19, 2005 14:53

Yesterday was a day that was full of many surprises for me.I finally told one of my friends about the secret that I have been hiding for a very long time. It was hard for me to explain at first, but after I finally came out and said it she was so cool about it. We didn't talk like it was one of our conversations about girl things, we had a sirious ( Read more... )

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jenny81 April 19 2005, 22:27:13 UTC

I found your jounal through a search and was hoping we could talk. I too am a young mother and know what you are going through. I would like to tell you that everything will be fine but I don't know. I do know that things worked out for me and now I have a beautiful son and good relationship with my family. Don't get me wrong, things were hard a first and my mom was very mad. She told me to get the f*@& out of her house and told me that I was no longer her daughter. Things only got worse from there. But one day when she realized that this was not a dream and there was really going to be a baby, she changed. Now things are good and I have even found someone to love me and my son and we are getting married in June. I know that one day things will get better for you too but until then if you need someone to talk to I am here.

Thank You brokenangel9686 April 19 2005, 22:58:59 UTC

I am glad to hear that there is someone out there that knows what I am going through. It seems like I'm so alone in this world and the ony people that I got to depend on is me and myself. I wish I could say that I got my mom on my side, but I don't. I want to tell her this so baadly but its like I can't. She would disown me just like your mother did, but the worse thing is that my mom won't take me back.My mom would take my family away from me and would probably blame herself. I can't even imagine how my dad would think about me. My mom had me when she was 18 years old, but lucky for her the father of her child would be the man that she spends the rest of her life with. However, me on the other hand, I have no father or husbadn for my child its just me! THE MAMA!! My mom use to alwasy tell me that I wasn't shit, and that I was goign to get pregnant at 18. Now look at me I'm 18 and I am pregnant. She already thought that I was a fuck up, she would probably think that I'm a hoe b/c I am having a kid and I don't have a husband. Its a ( ... )

Re: Thank You jenny81 April 20 2005, 03:05:00 UTC

Hi again. I am glad that I can help. My story goes like this. I was 18 just like you are now. I had just gotten out of school and had no plans to continue my education. I met this guy who at the time I thought was the world. (Turned out I was in my own world.) I found out that I was pregnant and was so scared. I didn't tell anyone. When I was about 3 months I finally told the father who told me there was no way it was his. His mom told me that I was hoe and that she was going to demand a DNA test. Not to worry, HE was the only one I had ever been with. Anyway his mom told me that we needed to tell my mom so I did. What a mistake. I could not have told her at a worse time. She had so much going on with my cousin out of jail and living with us and another cousin that she was trying to get rights over because her parents were in jail. So what did she do? She threw me out and told me to never come back. So I did. I was so scared and so alone and all I wanted was someone that I could talk too. When I was about 7 months ( ... )

Re: Thank You brokenangel9686 April 20 2005, 03:38:47 UTC

I want to tell my mom so badly. I am like hurting so much inside, but I just know how my mom is. She will be mad at someone and never forget them. I know family memebers that she has cut off just b/c they messed up with her.Althoug my mom loves me I dont think that she will ever be able to forgive me, and my dad will have a freaking heart attack.The thing that hurts the most is that i feel like i let my mom down. She let me leave NY and trusted me enough to send me out to Georgia to go to College and here I go and F*ck things up by putting myself in a situation where a guy can take advantage of me. I know that I can't blame myself for what happened but its my own fault to put myself in that kind of situation. I need my mom so much, and I want her here for me but how. How can I tell her that someone forced me to have a child? How can I tell her that I was helpless and couldn't stop him in time? As soon as I came to, I pushe dhim off of me, but maybe I wasn't fast enough. Maybe its my fault for going over there. I'm just not ( ... )

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