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You know..
sometimes I want to just fall over and die.
I don't know why..
I'll listen to a sad song, or read something so depressing in the news,
or online.. and i feel like dieing, crying about it isn't enough pain.
So much shit in the world; war, that guy in atlanta killing people in a
courtroom..
I feel so...
The only thing i can do is turn to music.. Turn to philosophy.
My friend Sarah and I have a saying
"Time is relative in it's own way. If you move too fast, the only thing you'll end up finding is yourself. Back at the beginning."
Meaning don't take life too seriously, it's just gonna throw you right back to where to started. It's like the negative sides of a maganet. If you try to connect them, they repell eachother. Dont go off looking for an answer to something that is obviously never going to be answered.
Right now, that saying means a lot to me. I see all this crap going on in the world; then i see people around me. Neglecting the fact that theres so much torture, famine, anger, contradiction, and death going on in the world. I want the few people that read this to stop for a moment, watch the news. Do whatever it is you do to find out whats going on in the world, and CARE ABOUT IT.
Look at those pictures. Those changed my whole perspective on things. Those people are so dedicated to their country, that they'll practically take a bullet for their country; but what president Bush fails to notice, is that their everyday people like you and I. With the same beliefs and feelings we have. To me, it seems like Bush treats our troops like toy soldiers. Just little hunks of plastic that can die whenever you tell them to.
I think a lot... about a lot...
and all i come back to...
is my grandpa.
Seeing him on that casket was one of the worst, questionable, odd, scary, and best feelings i've ever felt.
Knowing that i could never run out of the airport from a 4 hour flight and give him a hug again both pisses me off, and makes me sad.
But talking to my mom, i've come to realize a more symbolic view on life. Trailing away from the religious clap-trap im fed.
A crow flew by my moms head the moment my grandma poured my grandpas ashes ontop of a mountain...
ever since then, crows have been a very meaningful sign for both me and my mom..and i just miss him...
But you know whats funny. Christians. Everybody i know, who is a christian, all knows that im athiest.. or indecisive; and they all push their beliefs on me. Everytime i ask them what they think about the stories in the bible. 3/4 of them say that they believe all the stories in the bible; and only 1/4 knows the truth.
Wake up people... the only partially proven story in the bible is the one about Jesus. Everything else in the bible is a guide. It's a model. A model of the perfect human. How we're supposed to act, and how we should be.
I was watching Conan O'Brian tonight, and he said something really appealed to me.
You all know the famous question.
"If their is a god, why is their so much suffering in the world."
Well this is "Gods" answer (god on conan o'brian.)
(this isnt the exact answer, and it's a little rusty because its 3:30 am and im tired)
"The only reason that there is suffering is because a world without it, wouldnt be a world. God's image of a true human being and a true spirit. Is someone who does something for others. Free will... without suffering, there would be no free will."
God is testing us.. who knows if there is truly a god.
But from that.. there is one thing that i believe.
God is testing us... there maybe a heaven.. there may not be.
But dont focus on that... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life
just focus on living your life.
Think about it harder before you start judging me.
I feel so...
The only thing i can do is turn to music.. Turn to philosophy.
My friend Sarah and I have a saying
"Time is relative in it's own way. If you move too fast, the only thing you'll end up finding is yourself. Back at the beginning."
Meaning don't take life too seriously, it's just gonna throw you right back to where to started. It's like the negative sides of a maganet. If you try to connect them, they repell eachother. Dont go off looking for an answer to something that is obviously never going to be answered.
Right now, that saying means a lot to me. I see all this crap going on in the world; then i see people around me. Neglecting the fact that theres so much torture, famine, anger, contradiction, and death going on in the world. I want the few people that read this to stop for a moment, watch the news. Do whatever it is you do to find out whats going on in the world, and CARE ABOUT IT.
Look at those pictures. Those changed my whole perspective on things. Those people are so dedicated to their country, that they'll practically take a bullet for their country; but what president Bush fails to notice, is that their everyday people like you and I. With the same beliefs and feelings we have. To me, it seems like Bush treats our troops like toy soldiers. Just little hunks of plastic that can die whenever you tell them to.
I think a lot... about a lot...
and all i come back to...
is my grandpa.
Seeing him on that casket was one of the worst, questionable, odd, scary, and best feelings i've ever felt.
Knowing that i could never run out of the airport from a 4 hour flight and give him a hug again both pisses me off, and makes me sad.
But talking to my mom, i've come to realize a more symbolic view on life. Trailing away from the religious clap-trap im fed.
A crow flew by my moms head the moment my grandma poured my grandpas ashes ontop of a mountain...
ever since then, crows have been a very meaningful sign for both me and my mom..and i just miss him...
But you know whats funny. Christians. Everybody i know, who is a christian, all knows that im athiest.. or indecisive; and they all push their beliefs on me. Everytime i ask them what they think about the stories in the bible. 3/4 of them say that they believe all the stories in the bible; and only 1/4 knows the truth.
Wake up people... the only partially proven story in the bible is the one about Jesus. Everything else in the bible is a guide. It's a model. A model of the perfect human. How we're supposed to act, and how we should be.
I was watching Conan O'Brian tonight, and he said something really appealed to me.
You all know the famous question.
"If their is a god, why is their so much suffering in the world."
Well this is "Gods" answer (god on conan o'brian.)
(this isnt the exact answer, and it's a little rusty because its 3:30 am and im tired)
"The only reason that there is suffering is because a world without it, wouldnt be a world. God's image of a true human being and a true spirit. Is someone who does something for others. Free will... without suffering, there would be no free will."
God is testing us.. who knows if there is truly a god.
But from that.. there is one thing that i believe.
God is testing us... there maybe a heaven.. there may not be.
But dont focus on that... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life... focus on just living your life
just focus on living your life.
Think about it harder before you start judging me.