I was hoping I'd be feeling better now.. I guess that isn't going to happen.. I've been crying all day, My eyes are bloodshot and dry from lack of hope and compassion.. I haven't been like this for a very long time.. I crave for the blade, but I can't allow myself to fall back into old patterns, that would break to many promises and would just make ( Read more... )

Today, I woke up and realized how much I hate myself. Next I came online on MSN messenger... And was called a whore for no reason by one of my best friends.. So far I would say this is not my day.. I feel like shit. I now truly believe I don't belong here, and that I was sent to this place we call home to suffer.. I don't know what to do, or how to ( Read more... )

HEYYYY! heh, I found this in Katey's journal... heheh.. ITS AMAZING! I finally have a friend to keep me company while i'm online =P
I love duckies =D =D


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hi, yeah i'm bored and pissednow! i'm going to attempt to rewrite the last fuckign entry that just magically fuckign disapeared.. god that made me so mad.... anyways... on sunday chris came over, and we played halo2 for like 3 or 4 hours.... and he whooped my fucking ass every single time! i felt like such a douchebag.. haha, it was funny, then i ( Read more... )

FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST FUCKING WROTE A LONG ASS FUCKING ENTRY AND I WAS JUST FUCKING FINISHED IT AND IT FUCKING DELETED THE WHOLE FUCKGN THING RIGHT OFF THE FUCKING PAGE@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 JESUS FUCKING CHRIST IM FUCKING MAD NOW!!!!!!!! FUCKKKKKKK!

hi, I'm on the telephoner with chrissy poo... I'm boerd, today has been the biggest waste of a day in my whole entire life. I haven't done anything whatsoever... Ben is here, he's my coolio cousin =D god... we looked at a house today, and it was like a pile of shit.. it was gross.. there was dirt and it was so small and ughhhhhhhhish.. well ( Read more... )

hiiiiii, I'm so bored! I don't even think I have anything to do all weekend but homework and going to Chris's hockey! anyways... Today we started sex ed in health.. There were some very VERY detailed pictures in the textbooks.. people were laughing.. They're so damn immature.. Then Emily and I asked paul questions about pussy's... Now that was ( Read more... )

hi, i'm bored, its halloween tomorrow.. i don't really have all that much to say... i'm going to one of chris's family things today, and last ngiht i went to his hockey then went to grace's party.. god i love this song.. as i lay dying - behind me lies another fallen soldier, honestly, people if you like the music i like, DOWNLOAD IT! i'm so glad ( Read more... )

hi, haha today lamers like broke his nose, and killed himeself in gym.. poor guy, i feel SO bad for him lol, but it's funny at the same time.. he was like a helpless mental patient lmao.. anyways lol, tomorrow Chris is coming over off the bus i think.. i'm bored out of my mind.. and i completely forget what i was just going to type =D i had my ( Read more... )

hi, i'm bored right off my left nut! yes you heard me i have a left nut AND a right one.. yeah, in gym me, paige, angie, and easa are dancing to the beautiful people by MM[if anyone didnt know].. i have nothing to say.. I'm waiting for Chris to come online or to call, because he said he'd call me after he was back from the mall.. and he isn't yet ( Read more... )