We All Make Choices...

[brookes_leaves]

I don't have the motivation to do anything. I want to. But I just don't. There are too many thoughts swirling around in my head. I'm too tired. I'm too depressed. I'm too lonely. I watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding tonight. A movie that has always made me laugh and feel good. But tonight I cried. While watching this movie I realized that I can

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[cranky__crocus]

Hugs hugs hugs. I don't really know what to say beyond that, but I'm sending you my love and hugs.

Your corner will always have people in it, cheering for you. I'm sorry that right now it doesn't include your family. I hope that as your life starts changing and you grow closer (distance-wise) to your love, they will begin to comprehend her clear importance in your life. It is my hope they are currently in denial, thinking they will always have their little girl with them and not across a vast distance with a love of a gender that makes them uncomfortable (possibly) but that they will grow and adapt as they see what happens. I so very much hope so.

For now, love and hugs!

[brookes_leaves]

Sorry this has taken so long. I've been so busy and LJ kind of slipped down on the priority list. :/

But I really appreciate the hugs and the kind words. I'm sure what you've said is true. It's just so hard to deal with, you know? I hope that they realize that what's important to me is that we can all coexist happily and with kindness and caring. I wish they could see things through my eyes, just for a minute. That's all they'd need to get it.

Thanks again. :) Hugs!

[whitelder]

agreeing 150% with Kiwi :) and more hugs.

[brookes_leaves]

Thank you very much! Hugs!

[music_is_breath]

Oh honey

[brookes_leaves]

I know what you're saying and part of me wants to believe that's all it is. But at this point I have a very hard time convincing myself of it. Maybe part of their motivation is my protection. Or maybe their justification for themselves is my protection. I'm not really sure but at this point their "protection" is doing the opposite. There's nothing here they need to protect me from and if they'd open their eyes beyond what they want to see, they'd know that. I'm just so frustrated at this point, you know? But thanks and I really appreciate it! I hope you're doing well! Thanks for the hugs and sorry this took so long!

[music_is_breath]

Well I think I know what you mean... when they want to, parents can make you feel like you're running against walls. It really is frustrating.
I would love having something to say that could help but I guess when your parents don't want to "open their eyes beyond what they want to see" as you appropriately described it, there's little you can do. It's something they need to do...
I really hope they do it in time.
Until then I'm always here to comfort you! :)

I hope Christmas wasn't too awful with this subject hanging in the air all the time!

More *hugs* are on the way right now!

And thank you, I'm fine at the moment, except for the usual end-of-the-year stress everything is good! :)

[brookes_leaves]

Thanks hun. I really appreciate your understanding. That's enough in itself. :) Parents are people and make mistakes. We can't do anything about that. Things are slowly working themselves out and that's all I can really ask for. Christmas was fantastic though too short. :) I hope yours went well also!!! :D