so i even left the bar early tonight to work on my paper. what did i do? vegged out on the damn internet. damnit. i hate school. i really want to drop out and just save money for a car. i think if i wanted to i'd go back later too. my dad says he wouldnt help me. maybe he wouldnt. but then theres always school lones.... yeah he said he wouldnt help ( Read more... )

i practicaly live at his house. five night out of the week im over there. i need me time. so last night and tonight im home. friday ill be with him. sat and sunday home too ( Read more... )

so almost a month later and alot has happend ( Read more... )

tonight im playing with cherry popin daddies. im nervous. lance will be there. eek. haha ( Read more... )

amazing. home on a saturday downloading porn. if it wasnt for my sickness i'd be having a great night.

a best friend is someone who will be there for you no matter what. he doesnt even know about the wall he building between us. i dont think he cares. he doesnt act like it. im so done. i dont want to be crying to lance and jessica about him. i dont want to cry about him at all. i know he loves me and just cares. i just dont understand his love ( Read more... )

i hate how the past always catches up with you. damnit.

my brain is in a conflict with itself. my heart is strongly on one side, but do i listen to my heart? a friend tells me i go with my heart too much. should i challenge myself and see if i can stick to my brian on this one? hum. im not going to rush anything ill let my choice become a little more clear as time goes on before i make my choice i guess ( Read more... )

im in pismo beach. hes on my brain too much. we talked on the phone tonight for about fourty five minutes. he sings alot. hes a goober. i like it ( Read more... )

my day was good. then bad... then after work good. i probaly shouldnt have driving home because im drunk but oh well ( Read more... )