I fucked up.

This isn't where I was supposed to be.

This isn't what was supposed to happen.

My dad wasn't supposed to get cancer, diabetus, blocked veins. He wasn't supposed to be dying.

My sister wasn't supposed to be going to bed at 4 and waking up at 2 at fifteen years old. She wasn't supposed to be in the 'Special' Hallway.

and Jesse, she wasn't ( Read more... )

Call me skinny, breakable, lanky. But never unfashionable- and never small.

Turn left up the street
Nothing but grey concrete and dead beats
Grab something to eat
Mickie D's or KFC?
Only one choice in the city.
Done voicing my pity, now lets get to the nitty gritty.
Tune reminds me of my first Deeg.
Like unique, still sixteen, and feelin horny.
Point to the sky feel free.
A sea of people, all equal, smiles in front and ( Read more... )

Answer: I'd have to lose my virginity to someone I trust.

Real Answer: Sure, he might have 5 rings in his face, be really dirty, and I've never hung out with him before then: But I really wanted sex, and he gave it to me for two hours.

Answer: I won't sleep with your room mate while you are gone for 15 minutes.

Real Answer: Why are you freaking out so ( Read more... )

In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round.
I stand there for a minute starin' straight into the ground.
Lookin' to the left slightly, then lookin' back down.
World feels like it's caved in - proper sorry frown.
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us.
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust.
The wicked thing ( Read more... )

'Cause this world swallows souls.
and when the blues unfold,
It gets cold, silence burns holes.
You're going mad.
Perhaps you always were...
But when things was good you just didn't care.
This is called irony:
When you most need to get up? You've got no energy
Time and time shit'll happen.
The dark shit's unwrapping.
But no-one's listening your mates are ( Read more... )

Welp, on the 25th I gave notice.

Somehow she convinced me to work until New Years- and I will be working the night of the 31st/1st.

A fitting end to my time there, I suppose- and I'll make the most of it. Money's money, and it's going to be tight.

Radio signals are so strong from the old mans tower that my old Television cuts as soon as his Mic gets ( Read more... )

There are no good PC shops anymore.

Tiger Direct is mad gay.

When did building your own PC become impossible? When was getting a competent computer for a thousand dollars become so difficult?

God Damn you Science, God Damn you Industry!

Science and Industry!!!

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I feel like I am already dead.