i hate weekends when darrell is out of town. i'm all alone and all have to do is sit and think of all the people in this world that have rejected me. and study. darrell is the only person in the world that has choosen me. i feel sick.

last week i was do depressed because of school, that i decided to quit and open a pie shop. it would be so awesome. people love pie! you could be having one shitty day and have a little piece of pie and it feels like a little slice of heaven, and suddenly everything may be ok after all. i wish i had the money to open my pie shop, and oh yeah to pay ( Read more... )

we had our last test before spring break yesterday, and now my mind is so totally off on spring break already, and it feels great. now i'm just sitting here watching american idol with doggie darrell. i love my doggie darrell. is it sad that i miss my real darrell when he's at work? i'll answer that for myself, yes, it is sad that i can't go 5 ( Read more... )

i don't want to go to school. i don't want to go to school. i don't want to go school.

i'm so sick of studying. i haven't even studied as much as i should have this weekend, but i'm exhausted. i just want a nap. but i'm so afraid of pathology. i have 90 in there right now, on the buble. got to maintain my A, but need sleepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....zzzzzzzzzz.z

just like clock work, about 1/3 of the way through the semester, and i don't want to be a vet any more. i don't like this. i don't see myself as a vet. i feel like a failure. i'm a bundle of fear wrapped in a blanket of insecurity. i'm so tired, and studying isn't working. nothing sinks in and i can't do this. i want to cry. i wish this came easy ( Read more... )

i was bored yesterday so i was reading lj post from freshman year of undergrad. man things have changed. there was one post where i was complaining that a whole tank of gas was $30! now i'm excited if a tank is only $30. who would have thought 4 years ago that in the summer of 08 a tank of gas would cost me me almost $80 ( Read more... )

lulu only wants to be my friend when i have food. she is sitting next to me right now waiting for me to share my marble slab ice cream. i wont share. man this ice cream is good. it's butter pecan ice cream with chocolate chips and without pecans so it's really butter ice cream with chocolate chips. yummy! butter ice cream is awesome! especially ( Read more... )

i think the brides on bridezilla are just misunderstood. i mean no one is working with them and everyone is so totally trying to ruin their big day. as soon as you become a bride, the world is against you ( Read more... )

i bought my wedding dress saturday. i love it! i can't wait till it's hemed and fits perfect. now we need photographer, ice sculpture, bridesmaids dresses, tuxes, and the list goes on and on. we still have invitations and guest list to work on. i really want to book a photographer soon. i wish we at least knew one we wanted. i really want a great ( Read more... )