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i think i'm starting to become seriously scared of commitment, not trying to do a deep journal thing like everyone but i had to write it somewhere lol idk how to tell if a guy really cares about me cause i've been ... "used" kinda by so many or just gotten ass and then that's it and it's like ... does a guy just wanna get in my pants or can we still be friends and stuff. i think i've become all about just getting sum and then forgetting about it and sometimes i really want a boyfriend. ONE BOY to have to worry about + care about.
also - i hate boys who are sooo easy to like. you can completely hate them one day and the next you feel like you're in love with them. they mess with your mind cause they know you will always be there ... but the sick things is, i am always there. i mean sometimes i'm not and i move on and get over it but then when it comes down to it, all he has to do is sweet talk me and i'm back, wanting to be with him.
this sophomore year is gonna be sooooo interesting. can't wait to see what happens with all the boys + girls haha.
also also, i just love those irresistable NICE guys. i have one in my life right now .. well two kinda but basically one that is such a good friend to me but he's so gorgeous but suchhhhhhhhhhhh a sweet guy. oneeeee last thing hah, i've been so dissappointed in so many friends lately. we'll be so tight for a few days + then i just don't hear from them for like a week like it's nothing. or they won't answer a text or a call + then later i'll get 'are you mad at me? did i do something wrong?' idk i love them to death but sometimes i feel like they don't feel the same and would rather just go do stupid shit that they later complain about anyways.
wow okay i'm done, no one probably read this anyways lmao. peaceeee <3